Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone in this world. Not a soul I can turn to when I'm in need of comfort. Not a shoulder I can lean on when I'm feeling down. Just me, myself and I in this outrageous world. I feel abandoned. My mama don't want nothing...
I can finally say I'm starting to see change in my life. Positive change. Crazy right? It honestly shocks me as well because this is all new to me. So many bad things has been coming to me back to back. Seeing this positivity in my life is a bit foreign. I love it, trust me I do, but this is all new and it's causing my emotions to go crazy for some reason. It's hard for me to handle it.
Love, Miranda
"You starting to show a little bit now baby."Trey said with a grin before leaving soft kisses on my belly.
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I just smiled softly looking down at my self, I was now a month and a half pregnant and I was showing some which is crazy. My stomach wasn't huge of course, but I now had a little belly. It's crazy because just the other week at Trey's party nobody could even guess I'm pregnant, now I'm being asked if I'm pregnant and hearing congrats left and right. It's amazing.
These few weeks has been a little much for me. I've been having my bad days then my good days. One minute I'm eating everything in sight the next minute I'm crying like hell. I've just been all over the place. The good thing I can say is the morning sickness has not been a problem for me as much. I still get a little nauseous at certain smells, but it has been good. I've really been trying to stay stress free as possible. The doctor told us how crucial the first trimester is and how I should try to be as relaxed and stress free as possible. That's exactly what I'm trying to do.
I'm lowkey still in shock. Every time I look down and see this little belly it reminds me that I'm really am pregnant and what's shocking me the most is I never even made it this far with being pregnant before. I never got to the point where my stomach was growing or I could feel the changes. I never got that opportunity to before, but now I do. I'm just so blessed that that past situation is over. That this time around won't be like the rest.
Other than my pregnancy, life has been going pretty well for me. So much positivity is surrounding me and everybody around me is happy. Trey and I have literally been spending everyday with each other. If I'm not staying at his house, he's staying at mine. I've been loving it and I'm honestly in an okay spot in life.
"Have you went shopping for school yet?"Trey questioned as I started to finish getting ready. I have my therapy session to get to.
"No, it keeps slipping my mind."I admitted. I've been meaning to go school shopping for myself, but I just keep forgetting.
"Well, we need to get on that."Trey told me.
School for me was literally almost here and I have so many ranges of emotions. I'm excited then I'm a little nervous, then I'm a little scared. I'm excited because lord knows all I've ever wanted to do is go to college and start my career. I'm nervous because I don't know what to expect. I'm scared because I don't know if this will be too much for me. Dealing with this pregnancy all while going to school, I don't know what to expect. I just pray to God that everything goes easy on me and everything goes smooth. January will be here in no time.
