Diary of A Broken Woman

Chapter 37

Dear Diary,

In the process of growing in life, are you suppose to feel mentally drained? Tired of dealing with your emotions? Tired of relieving your past events? Because that's where I'm slowly going. Dealing with all these past incidents and situations has been having my mind going crazy. I've literally been thinking nonstop. Even though I'm at such a great place in my life, I still feel like so much is holding me back. I don't know what it is, but I'm hoping it goes away soon. It's starting to get unbearable for me.

                                           Love, Miranda

I closed my diary, stuffing it into the nightstand on my side of the bed in Trey's room. It's crazy how much I've really taken over his house. So much of my things are here, it's crazy. I honestly don't remember the last time I was home. I'm not complaining though. I love being with my baby. It doesn't matter where I'm at.

These past days I've honestly just been trying to get myself together. Mentally. After meeting with Darrell, my mind hasn't stopped going. I've literally been reminiscing and living in my past emotions. I don't think I've ever felt this vulnerable in my life. I've just had a lot of time to think on things. I'm really trying to get over it, but it's hard.

"Pookie, why is these in my drawer?"Trey asked as he came out the closet. I looked up to see him holding up my underwear. I couldn't help to giggle seeing his face expression.

"Because I ran out of room."I admitted before stuffing some chips in my mouth.

"Ran out of room?"

"Yes Tremaine."

"You mean to tell me you ran out of room in that big ass closet? Pookie you done already filled up half the closet."Trey said shaking his head and making me laugh.

"And I need more room."I admitted making him frown up even more and me to bust out laughing.

"Your ass is gone mess around and take over to the whole closet."Trey said shaking his head as he sat on the bed.

"You mind as well move in."

I looked at him seeing how serious he was. This was the first time we ever had a conversation about moving in together.

"Move in?"I stated, looking at him.

"Yeah, Pookie we with each other 24/7. And I mean 24/7. You either spending the night at my crib or I'm at your shit. It's getting pointless for us to be back and forth at each other crib. We're together and we've both let it be known we're not going anywhere. So, what are we waiting on?"He stated. It all sounded so simple, but I don't know why it seemed like such a big deal to me.

"I don't know babe, that seems like such a big step though."I let out, trying to figure out if he was really ready for that.

"Pookie we done made a baby together, it ain't no more big steps for us. Matter of fact, I don't even know why I'm asking you. You are moving in."Trey said confidently not bothering to reason with me.

"Excuse me?"I said with a smirk.

"You heard me Pookie. You're moving in. There is no way in hell you about to have my baby and we living in two different houses. There ain't even no more debating on this."Trey said not even reasoning with me anymore. I can't with this man.