Diary of A Broken Woman

Chapter 30

Dear Diary,

Time heals everything. A lot of things take time to heal and some need to realize that. You can't just wake up one day and be this happy, outgoing person. It takes time. It may take time, but you will soon get there and it will be worth that wait. Time is on our side...

                                    Love,
                                      Miranda

"M, can you help me with this." DJ asked, walking into my room with his notebook.

"Ofcourse." I stated, placing my pen in my diary and closing it.

He sat down, handing me his notebook. I noticed it was his math homework. I looked over all of it and my little brother had all of them right. He was just stuck on the last one. Seeing he had all those correct answers had me smiling from ear to ear. I don't think my baby can get no more perfect. Amazing in school and a beast on the court. They not messing with my baby brother.

I helped him with the last problem before he hurried his way out my room. It is a Thursday and I've finally got DJ and Mia both. I've had them all this week and I've loved it. I get so lonely at times. Ofcourse I had Trey, but he flew to Miami yesterday and won't be back until Sunday. Something happened with one of the gyms down there and he needed to fly out. Ofcourse he asked me to go with him, but I had to decline. I knew it was my time to have DJ and Mia, so I couldn't go. But, if I didn't have them I would've went. I have nothing else to do.

Boredom would be a complete understatement. I've been so bored and lonely it makes no sense. Yeah I have Tremaine, but he has work to do so he can't give me all of his time. I've been hanging with the girls these few days, but they're busy too. Mia and DJ are still in school, they haven't started break yet. So, I've been so bored. It hasn't even been a full two weeks that I've quit that job and I can't deal. This is the main reason I like having a job. To keep myself occupied. I don't like just sitting on my behind, that's not me. I just need January to hurry up so I can at least start school.

I let out a breath, standing from my bed then making my way downstairs. I walked into the living room to see Mia and DJ both sitting on the couch. Mia had a pout on her face as she peeped out the window then turned around.

"I swear, I think I just seen snowflakes, M." She admitted.

"You probably did." I said with a pout as well, sitting across from her. This winter wasn't playing no games with us. It was coming quick and I am not ready. It hasnt officially snowed yet, but I know it's coming.

"But I need to talk to you guys." I stated, rubbing my hands across my thighs.

"What is it?" DJ said, stuffing his phone in his pocket.

I sighed while softly rubbing my forehead. I feel like it's finally time for me to talk to them about everything I've been dealing with and tell them everything. I've been postponing this for two reason. One, I haven't had both of them together to do so and two, I'm nervous as hell. I don't know how they will react.

"So, you guys remember when Trey had everybody meet up at that lounge last week to talk?" I started, making them nod their heads.

"Well, he did that so that I could tell everybody somethings."

"Tell them what?" Mia asked with a confused face expression.

"Well, I've been dealing with things personally. My emotions, my feelings, my thoughts. My thoughts haven't been in the best place and my emotions have been every where. I've been dealing with this for awhile now and I didn't tell anybody because I didn't want you guys to know how unhappy I am."