Inside My Camera

Deep thought

He tell her about what happened last night, including when Jimin came around, while Jiae washing the dishes. It's embarrassing for her, but now she's okay with it, at lease he isn't misunderstood again.

Today they left pretty early and since Yoongi's apartment a block away from work he decide to walk Jiae to work first before he goes to work. Today Yoongi's going to help his boss interviewing new intern so he doesn't have a tight schedule.

Surprisingly 17 years old Jungkook interview for a part time job there after school and he didn't tell Yoongi cause Jungkook want to start as a new independent person. He got the job, but not because Yonngi makes it easy for him, but because HitManBang him self don't want to waste the 17 years old boy gift.

Yoongi knows that Jungkook would suit his job because he knows that Jungkook is good at rapping, composing, singing, and dancing. And BIGHIT is the place for people like him. Bangtan teach Jungkook well since he was 13 years old. Working in the same company now, Rapmon, Jungkook and Yoongi gain much more time together. Meaning that Yoongi got a change to help Jungkook move on his life. Yoongi hope that with this Jungkook could cheer up a bit and use it as time to improve his skills and others.

Jungkook got accepted to be one of the back dancer and a composer but still a training him self at it, so his job as a starter composer is helping Yoongi and Namjoon. Working for 4 hours a day isn't that tiring for Jungkook he use is for a valuable things to be better for Yein.

It was lunch time when the three of them sat together in the office canteen. Jungkook didn't enter school today cause of the interview and training so they are now eating lunch together.

"How is it working here Jungkookie?" Namjoon asked while munching his sandwich. "It's fun hyung, working is fun. I love what I do so yeah, I can fit in well, even if I'm younger than the others."

They both talk about work and stuff while Yoongi in the other hand. He's flying in another land.

He's thought is only at last night, when Jimin comes and they talk.

He can't think straight today, gladly he didn't have a major work to do if not. It's going to be a disaster.

'Jiae, jiae, jiae. How can I fall for you when you're not my type at all'

So that's what he have been thinking all day long. He starting to admit his feelings for her since last night.

Flash Back

{Yoongi and Jimin conversation}

"She's crying and I can't leave her alone there, she needs me."

Yoongi said.

"You like her don't you hyung?"

Jimin asked him. They're talking in a serious matter.

"No I-I—I'm not.."

He's trying to deny it. but deep inside. 'I like her..' he thought.

"Stop denying it hyung, it's obvious."

Jimin said and continue.

"For one and a half year you've been avoiding girls. Even when you know you're popular at work, and you know you can get any girl you want just with picking one. It's her isn't it? Since that summer vacation you never bring up a conversation about girls. She's the reason."

Jimin said pointing at the picture hanging on the living room hall. a picture of her back. from all of those beautiful pictures he capture. Why choosing this one? Inside that camera he have, from all those beautiful memories he capture, why that one? Why?

He's thought start battling inside.

'Why did you stop taking picture after that vacation? why? why does everything inside your camera now is only fills with her? You said that photography is your hobby, why stop doing it? why did you use your camera again after one a half years? for what? for capturing her again? making her your memories? and own her only inside your camera? why don't you own her for real? why? why choosing to be gentle and trowing all your swag away? why leaving all your work just to take care of her? why waking up early so you can take her to work when you can sleep and save your energy? why bother to run just so you can hide her away from anyone else and have her for your self?'

'Min Yoongi. you can't have her only inside your camera. have her for real, for your self. being selfish doesn't mean you ignore others happiness. being selfish for your self is for your own happiness and your happiness will effect others happiness, just like Jungkook happiness. If he's not happy now doesn't mean you couldn't be happy. If you're happy he's happy. And with that. He will found his happiness again. Being a brother you are, he's big brother. Be happy for him. let him know that life isn't just like that. let him know that he's not alone. Let him know that his love isn't over yet,maybe his love one leave him. but he have you and the others. He'll fight for it if you show him how you fight for yours. be happy to Yoongi. Never mind. do it. do it for your own. do it as you don't give a shit or fuck about it.'

'It's not fucking over.'

He's deep though ends.

-

-

-

-

Hey, you all gonna hate me after this..

you see, school is starting again after 2 months break, means that I can't update as fast as I always do. maybe once a week, is that okay? I'm really sorry but my school.. you see it's kinda full with bullshit kekeke I'm kinda harsh but like seriously they make me do test just when I enter, like dude 2 months break and you think my brain still works? I don't even remember what math is.. 

so that's all for now, maybe tonight or tomorrow I update another chap. and maybe I'm going on hiatus again for a week cause the shitty test, that's all, sorry for the harsh words.

love u and please give comments and vote, I need opinions to improve my skills. I'm open for any suggestion, I even might think about it <3 

xoxo sheix.