Chapter 13: I Will

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Clary

"He's gone," my voice was trembling.

Jace and Izzy looked at me as if they didn't hear me -no, they looked like they didn't believe me. Their pale faces was still showing the same panic but they somehow still managed to look at ease. "Calm down, Clary, maybe he's somewhere-"

"Calm down? Calm down?! Alec is missing and you're telling me to 'calm down' ?"

Izzy put her hands up as if it was a fence to defend herself. "Geez, I was just trying."

"Izzy, Clary was right. We do need to be aware. I can sense something is up," but Izzy didn't seem to buy his words, rather, she looked offended with his words. "I'm not saying we should be panic or anything. I mean, Alec is a really good fighter -if that's what offend you- but at some points, things could gone wrong, and what if Clary was right-"

"But I am right." I cut in.

Jace looked at me and sighed before he continued, "..But we still don't know yet. We're just talking about possibilities here."

There was silence.

Izzy still stood there near the window of Jace's room with her hands folded in front of her chess and her eyes lost in the view of Brooklyn Street down there. Jace was just sitting there in his bed, looking down at his hands, maybe he was trying to connect one dot to another and figured things out.

And me, I was still gawking there at the center of the room, couldn't believe that Izzy and Jace didn't believe me, especially when this is about Alec!

My blood was boiling, I was so damned to yell at them both. But I don't even know what to do either, or simply convince them that this is real. I had told them what happened. I did. Not the full version, but I told them almost everything. Yet, they seemed to look at me like I was bluffing.

"Maybe we should call the clave," Izzy said, almost silently. But her voice echoed through the room and rang our mind all.

Calling the clave. It crossed my mind. And it must had crossed Jace's and Izzy's mind too. But somehow, it felt like something was holding us all from suggesting that.

Clave. Clave-silent brother-then inquisitor. We ended up having to tell Robert at the end, and it just so.. Uncomfortable.

"We have to go after him," I said. "Now."

"Clary, I told you. At least we have to wait for tomorrow. See if he's really gone." Izzy said again, trying to convince.

"No! We need to go now-"

"And even if we go now, Clary, where are we going to go?" Jace asked

I lost my words. He's right.. But.. "We can try.. to- I can make a portal, I'll use his object and imagine his place-"

"Just like warlocks track people down?" Izzy cut off. I nodded. "Damn it, Clary! That's just ridiculous. That's not how making portal works!"

"I can try-"

"You know what? I'm out of here." Izzy said while leaving the place.

I looked at Jace, trying to read what he's thinking. But he stayed silent. Looking as if he was thinking. "Jace?" The stare he was giving me.. It's so full of doubt.

"I'm sorry, Clary." Was all he said before he left the room.

The dark sky outside reminded me of his eyes. I closed my eyes. Trying to think of possibilities. Trying to bring the idea that Alec is alright.. But still, I couldn't think of that when right in my heart I know that something was not right.

"If they don't want to go, then be it."

But honestly. I don't even know what am I supposed to do. I'm lost. I don't know how to come to him.

What a pathetic action isn't it?

I sat on the floor, feeling my knees weak and my chest heavy. Think. But I couldn't. I just couldn't!

I held my stele in my hand, its end touched the floor slightly. I closed my eyes, trying to bring back all the memories of him. His eyes, his smile, his voice. The kiss. Everything felt so beautiful. I let a tear escaped my eyes slowly, my hand felt like it was moving by its own rhythm. Drawing and thinking. I let my mind wander. I let it reach out to him. Wherever he is. My hand, it drew a rune on the floor beneath me as if it moved by itself. And I let it. With my eyes closed and my heart crossed, I let my hand draw the rune it wished to.

But then my hand just stopped.

I opened my eyes and saw the rune I had drawn. It was strange, but beautiful. It was not the rune from the grey book. And the longer I analyzed it, I could see it glowing brighter and brighter.

And suddenly it just shot. The brightness erupted through my eyes. It was so bright, too bright.. Until it all just suddenly turned black and died out.

The last thing I remembered was one sentence. A sentence I put my heart on.

I will find you, Alec.

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Long time no see, shadowhunters!

Did anyone miss me?
No?
.. Okay.

Anyway,
Guys, I am so sorry that I suddenly disappeared. Meanwhile I was gone, there's plenty of thing I've been working out.

And trust me,
For you all, this time, I won't abandon this story again.

I'm coming back, and I'm going to finish this story for you guys
(That is if you want me to do so)

And hopefully you're still catching up with the story because that would meant a lot for me.

Thank you so much for still being here, this chapter is short (and lame. Boo!) But! Next chapter will have a clalec moment bcs well clary is going to meet Alec and something will happen there (oops, spoiler)

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