Not For Show

Chapter 13 - "Roy Willow Reed is your daughter"

Guilt hadn't left my heart over the last twenty four hours. All I could think about the Harry's expression when I told him about my engagement. Was it because of our kiss? Our interactions?

I tried to look like I was fine in front of Nathan, but he noticed I was distant. 

We had spent the rest of our night together. Early morning, Liam came and picked me up for a couple of radio interviews, so Nathan decided to go take some photos around the city. It kind of got me excited though. Nathan had such a gift with his photography. He had the power of finding such a light in a dark situation.

My afternoon was spent doing a photo shoot for Vanity Fair. As much as I loved photo shoots, with all the clothes and the make-up, my mind was somewhere else.

My thoughts were with Harry.

I was worried about him. I needed to know that he was okay.

As I rode up the elevator up to his apartment, my heart only seemed to beat more louder. I was nervous to him. I was afraid of what he would do. Would he slam the door in my face? Would he ignore me? Would he be a mess? Would he be completely fine?

I rang his door bell and waited. The wait seemed to take longer than it probably actually was. But still no answer. I could see the light on through the cracks underneath the door and hear music coming from inside the apartment. Harry was home. So I did what I would always do in this sort of situation.

I grasped onto the doorknob and opened the unlocked door. The music was pretty loud which meant that Kian wasn't here with him. As I turned the corner of his apartment, I finally saw Harry. he was sitting on a high chair in front of his kitchen island. In front of him he had a couple of empty bottle of beer and one halfway through in his hands.

I watched over closer to him until he noticed it was me. He looked up at me and I couldn't quite read what he was feeling. He was blocking that away from me.

" I believe I didn't answer the door for a reason" he simply said.

" well it was unlocked so I took that as an invitation" I shrugged with a smile trying to lighten the mood.

I watch Harry take a sip of his cold beer looking away from me. I took a seat across from him.

" so what are you doing here? An invitation to the wedding perhaps?" Harry chuckled.

I felt the pain come out of Harry through his words. It reminded me of the old days when he would get upset with me and would just have a sarcastic conversation with me

" I'm sorry that it caught you off guard" I apologized.

This time Harry didn't respond. He just chuckled and continued to drink his beer without looking at me.

" I've known him for a couple of years now. He's a great guy and treats me really well. Nathan is what I needed" I nodded.

" why the hell are you telling me this? Why are you telling me that he's a great guy? To throw it in my face how horrible I was to you?!" Harry glared at me.

" no!" I exclaimed.

" then why?" he continued to glare at me.

" I just thought that you'd want to know that I'm going to be okay. That I haven't chosen a guy that'll hurt me... the way that Carter did" I said.

Harry looked up at me, finally understand what I actually meant.

" why now? why not in a couple more years?" Harry asked.

" we've known each long enough. We know each other well enough. The timing is perfect" I explained.

" do you love him?" Harry asked.