I still can't believe it. I've seen these pictures pop up on my feed for hours yet it's still shocking. Lia and Zayn walked the red carpet last night together. They've come out to the world, just like I had with Nathan.
Maybe it was a good thing that Harry had walked the carpet way before any of us. I know the exact questions they'd be asking him. Invasive horrible questions.
Did he know that Lia and Zayn were going to walk the red carpet together? Did she warn him?
" Cailin?"
I look up to see Gia, the wedding planner, smiling over at me.
" Sorry" I shake my head putting my phone down.
" I asked if you decided on what flowers you wanted to use," she says bringing me back to all the planning in front of me. " I know you wanted roses, but have you decided on the color?"
I look down at the options in front of me. Red roses. Pink roses. Lavender roses. But I always imagined white roses, secretly my favorite. The same roses Harry used to give me.
" The pink ones" I tell her.
" Great choice!" she smiles.
She shows me other choices I have to make for the wedding. I can't help but feel like I'm being careful with all the choices I'm making. Maybe because the wedding I dreamed of for years, wasn't with Nathan. Now that it is with him, I feel guilty for wanting some of the same choices I would have made if it were with someone else.
My phone buzzes. I reach over praying that it's not another notification about Lia and Zayn. It's not from Zayn either, he's ignoring my texts. It's Liam warning he'll be here in the next couple of minutes.
" I have to get Roy up from her nap" I say as I pick myself up from the dining table. " Her friend's coming over for a play date."
" Oh how cute!" Gia says.
" Yeah, they're adorable" I smile.
I help her organize everything back up and walk her out. Before I go to Roy's room I turn on the music to hopefully brighten up her mood once she's awake.
Walking into her room, makes me want to lay right down next to her. Chloe did an amazing job helping me decorate it. It's the fairyland that Roy loves so much. Jess's fairy gifts hang from the ceiling for Roy to imagine flying over her.
I sit on Roy's bed next to her and watch her for a couple of seconds before my hand strokes her hair. Her little blonde curls make me smile. Harry's mom would have been a wonderful grandmother. Sweet and caring, wouldn't ever want to see her granddaughter in tears. Cheryl did a great job describing her to me.
It does break my heart that she'll never have a grandfather. She'll get to have that type of relationship.
" Roy" I sing to her close to her ear. She groans as my rub her back. She's always hated being woken up. I shake her a little.
" uhhh" she groans again causing a little laughter to escape my lips.
" Kian should be here any minute," I say. " Remember, you two are supposed to play today as I promised."
Her eyes immediately fly open.
" Mr Harry promised too," she says turning herself.
" Yeah, he did" I smile.
Roy rubs her eyes and sits up. I play dance with her to get her energy up and it ends up making her laugh.
" Come on, I think the chicken nuggets might be ready!" I say as I pick her out of her bed.
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Fanfiction"Then I was forced to watch him walk away from me for the last time. It was only after he closed the door behind him that tears finally streamed down my face. Harry was out of my life now." Only now it's 5 years later and everything has changed. Th...
