I'm nervous. I've been nervous the entire morning. I tried hiding it from Roy but she knows something is off. It's her excitement to see Kian again that distracts her from asking any questions.
" You've been fidgeting all morning"
I look behind me, to see Nathan clicking through the pictures on his camera. He glances over and gives me a soft smile.
" I don't know how she'll react" I confess to him. " I'm scared she'll hate me forever."
" I really don't think she'll react like that" Nathan shakes his head.
" Are you sure?" I ask crawling onto the bed next to him.
" I think that she'll be so happy she gets to know who her father is that she won't even think about the bad parts you're thinking about" Nathan explains as he places his arm around my shoulder.
The worst scenarios go through my head as I try to prepare myself for the next couple of hours to come.
" Do you want me to come with?" Nathan asks.
He wants to support me. He wants to support Roy. But it feels wrong, so I shake my head.
" I think it should just be us, Harry and Kian" I tell him.
" His son is going?" he asks.
" Yeah, Harry wants him to be a part of it" I nod.
" I think that's a great idea" Nathan gives me a crooked smile.
The way he's been able to push his feelings about Harry aside still surprises me. He trusts my decision. Yet still encourages me to build Roy and Harry's relationship.
I reach down and place my lips on his. A sweet kiss that I've loved for years. He places his hand on the back of my neck pulling me closer towards him.
" momma!"
I pull away from Nathan with a laugh escaping my lips. I hear running footsteps coming closer. I give Nathan a short kiss before I jump out of bed.
" I'm coming!" I say grabbing my purse from the chair before running out into the living room.
Roy's hair sticks out in every direction as she holds a hairbrush in her hand. She pouts as I let out a small laugh at the way she looks.
" it's not funny momma" she says.
" oh trust me, it is" I say as I take the hairbrush from her.
I brush it all out before putting it up in a ponytail. She refuses anything but the blue hair tie surprisingly. She's always preferred the green one.
Roy says goodbye to Nathan, including a bear hug and he wishes me luck letting me know that he's only one call away.
Roy rushes out of the front door with me running behind her. She's the first to press the button for the elevator. It's another several seconds before the elevator doors open. We walk inside joining someone else inside.
" hi," I say to the man to the baseball cap.
He doesn't say anything back. He keeps his eyes on the elevator buttons. Uncharacteristically, Roy holds onto my legs, almost hiding away.
It's an odd 15 second elevator ride. But once we're on the ground floor, Roy pulls me out of it immediately.
" Is everything okay?" I ask her as I wrap my hand around her to walk on the street.
" yup," she says with a smile back on her face.
It's a twenty-minute taxi ride to get to Central Park through the traffic, making Roy only more anxious to see her friend, her brother. But once we make it, it's not hard to find the kiddie amusement park build by the fountain.
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Fanfic"Then I was forced to watch him walk away from me for the last time. It was only after he closed the door behind him that tears finally streamed down my face. Harry was out of my life now." Only now it's 5 years later and everything has changed. Th...
