" This day is perfect!"
" Have you seen the flowers?!"
" Doesn't Roy look like the absolute perfect flower girl?"
" I can't believe this day is here!"
" You look beautiful!"
" Cailin"
" Cailin"
With a shake of my arm, I look over to see Jess by my side. She gives me a smile but her eyes are searching for an answer. But I don't know what to say.
Jess breaks her eye contact and turns towards the mirror. I follow her gaze into the mirror. She stands behind me fixing little strands of my hair. While everyone around us sips on glasses of champagne with wide smiles on their faces, I watch Jess holding a caring look in her eyes. She can read right through me.
" Mom?" I look over. " Can you get me some water?"
" Of course!" she smiles getting up and walking towards the table of beverages.
" Thank you" I say once she hands it over to me.
I drink the water through a straw so it doesn't ruin my makeup, something my mom had warned me about.
I'm still trying to process everything that happened last night. From Nathan's speech and Harry's reaction to me going to his place reacting the way that I did. I still can't decide who was wrong.
There's a knock at the door. I look over taking a deep breath not really knowing what to expect, or who. One of the girls walks over and opens the door. It's one of the assistants to the wedding planner. She's holding a vase with flowers.
" This came in a couple of minutes ago" the girls smiles.
" Is there a note?" my mom beams walking over towards the flower.
Mom walks over towards me with the flowers in her hands and shows them to me. She's the one to dig through the flowers in search of a note. She pulls out a little card and reads it outloud for everyone to hear.
" Enjoy your beautiful day" Mom says.
Simple.
" Who is it from?" I ask.
" No name" Mom shakes her head.
She hands me the card and I look at it. It's hand written. It's not from Harry. I shouldn't have expected anything. I toss the card onto the vanity and take a breath.
A few moments of laughter and cheers passed as I watch them. I don't know how I'm reacting in front of them. I'm paralyzed inside. I shouldn't be feeling like this, yet here I am, afraid of saying the wrong thing in front of everyone.
The wedding planner walks into the room with a clipboard in her hand.
" Are we ready?" she asks.
" Yes!" Mom cheers next to me.
Everyone gets up too fast. I look around almost desperately looking for something, someone. But it's Willow who I'm searching for. Her comfort. Her impulsivity in a way.
Jess places her hand on top of mine. I look up at her and get a comfort that I'm in need of.
" Are you ready?" she asks quietly.
I nod quickly ready for this feeling to be gone.
I walk out behind everyone with Jess by my side. As we walk down the hallway, it only seems to feel like a longer walk. The hallway never stops. My throat starts closing in and I cling to Jess. She looks down at me reading me entirely.
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Fanfiction"Then I was forced to watch him walk away from me for the last time. It was only after he closed the door behind him that tears finally streamed down my face. Harry was out of my life now." Only now it's 5 years later and everything has changed. Th...
