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Chapter 21 - "she's pregnant"

Flashback

Harry's POV

A year ago, I didn't think much would change. I didn't think I would lose Cailin. I sure didn't think that I would have a baby boy on the way.  It scared the living shit out of me. I was ready to be the father.

I moved to LA with Lia to try to make things work. I was trying to be there for Lia during the pregnancy but it was hard. It was hard knowing that it was because of that baby, that Cailin was no longer in my life.

As far as Lia and the media knew, Lia and I were standing together as a couple. But I was back to my old ways. I would go out, drink way too much, and sleep with a girl. Paparazzi didn't seem to catch me, even though I could care less.

  The studio had become my escape from the life I had created around me. When I wasn't out drinking and sleeping around, I was in the studio writing. Over the past couple of months, I wrote maybe over 100 songs. All of them about Cailin. Everyone around me knew, but no one said a word.

As I finished a verse, I looked over to see Jess and my assistant Hannah stare intensively at her phone. They looked shocked at whatever they were looking at.

" what's going on?" I asked as I put my pencil down.

Jess looked up at me and she looked as if she'd seen a ghost. Her face was flushed of color.

"Jess?" I pushed.

" I don't even know how to bring this up to you..." Jess confessed.

I didn't know what was coming next but I felt like I couldn't breathe. Hannah got up from the couch and handed me her phone

The first thing I saw was a picture of Cailin. The picture was taken of her waling through the airport. It looked like any other picture I usually end up looking at. But as I looked closer, something looked different. Cailin had a obvious bump on her stomach.

Cailin was pregnant.

I felt like I was going to be sick. 

I still couldn't breathe.

I looked up at Jess and I knew exactly what she was thinking. She felt bad for me. She knew the love I had for Cailin. She knew that one day I still planned to get Cailin back. But now it all seemed like a delusion. Cailin had already moved on and started her own little family of her own.

All of a sudden and anger ran through me and I threw the cell phone across the room making it smash against the wall. I heard the girls gasp in shock at my anger. I glanced at them and knew I needed to get out of there.

" I'll get you a new one, Hannah" I said before I walked out of the studio.

I needed to be away from them. I knew how my anger could turn into words that could hurt them. I needed to drink.

I walked over to the closest bar, which ended up being a half hour walk. I didn't mind it though. It was a way for me to think without anyone watching me. I walked into the semi-empty bar and quickly made to a stool at the end of the bar, a bit hidden. I expected it to be slower than usually due to it being a Monday night.

I ordered a neat whiskey and sat there hidden from the world.

All I could think of was Cailin and her pregnancy. I I thought about how her life would change. I wondered if she was just as scared as I was with my own baby. I wondered if her pregnancy was planned. I wondered who the father was.

Immediately my mind went to Liam. Thet had always been so close. Especially now that he was her manager. The asshole must have tried to be the hero when Cailin and I ended things. Now she was carrying his baby.