Not In Love With Liam

38 ~ Unable To Take Your Call

Several minutes went by. Chase didn't return. Alex and I were meant to get a train, but I told him to go without me.

Of course, he didn't.

I said I was going to go inside to clean up too, so he waited for me outside.
Chase was nowhere to be found in the guys toilets, so I assumed he'd left through the back exit.
I was currently locked in a stall back in the club on Noah's campus, filling up people's voicemail inboxes.

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'The person you are calling is unable to take your call. Please leave a message after the tone.'

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"Hi. Hey. Chase. I'm-"

I cut the phone.

I took a deep breath,

and called again.

It went to voicemail like before- just as I knew it would.

"Chase I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being an asshole and I hope your nose stops bleeding."

I hung up.

"Ah, what the hell.." I sighed, going back into my contacts to call Chase again.

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'The person you are calling is unable to take your call. Please leave a message after the tone.'

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"You're a son of a bitch for flirting with Noah. You know.. you know I like her a lot, you know better than anyone."

Another call ended. Another number dialled.

This time, I called Dad.

My real dad.

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'The person you are calling is unable to take your call. Please leave a message after the tone.'

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"Hi Dad. We haven't spoken in a while. And guess what? Being drunk sucks because you say a lot of shit you don't mean, so, allow me to apologise in advance for everything I'm about to say."

The call cut.

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'The person you are calling is unable to take your call. Please leave a message after the tone.'

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"I personally don't see what Mum sees in Antony. You're a much better guy than him. You're better looking too but I don't know, maybe Antony has a bigger dick. That's Mum's problem. I miss you sometimes Dad. I used to think some wonderful miracle was gonna happen and you and Mum would make up and you'd come back home. But you didn't. Recently, my friend - well she's more than a friend but less than a girlfriend if you get what I mean. We've fucked though. That was fun. You said I had to tell you when I'd had my first time so - I'm telling you. But anyway-"

My time had run out. I called again to continue my bullshit.

"Anyway, my friend's parents were on the verge of splitting up recently and although I care the world about her, some small part of me kind of wished her parents would split up. I was a little jealous when they worked everything out and stayed together. But I'm glad they did. I don't want Noah to go through what I did, it's not her fault I had a shitty childhood. It's yours. Yours and Mum's. So, you know - thanks a lot. I don't know how to deal with losing the girl I love and I don't know how to deal with losing my bestfriend either, but I've lost both so here I am. I'm drunk. I couldn't do it when Harvey died, and I can't do it now. So I hope Chase forgives me. Noah too. By the way, Noah's the girl I fucked. But you know, not just that. I really do love her. Anyways, I guess I'll see you later or.. I don't know. Bye."