man its been so long since i've actually gotten as serious as this chapter is gonna be
*cue the nervous laughter soundtrack*
so first of all, i'm sorry??
(i don't know if i should phrase it like that or not)
basically,,
recently i've noticed that i've been really "away" from all my friends, its like,, i feel just really disconnected from everyone (internet and irl friends)
like for irl friends, i'm kinda going through a phase where even though i usually would find it nice to hang out with my friends and chat and shit, i just don't, i just kinda stay away from all my friends
and for internet friends, when someone messages me or something, i start to feel like i'm talking to some big celebrity on the internet so i end up typing a response, then deleting it, and then i'll decide that it'll be better if i ignore and don't embarrass myself??
(so basically sorry that i haven't been responding to basically anything)
i don't know
i feel really stressed even though i shouldn't???
but i don't even know if its stress, its kinda more just lots of guilt
this was basically supposed to be an apology chapter so you don't have to comment anything that would be comforting, i'll [hopefully] resolve this problem soon
but yeah, i just needed to post this because if i didn't i'd feel like an ass for not responding to any messages
- Grayson
