I HAVE TESTING TOMORROW SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME ESCAPE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY AND FAKE MY IDENTITY
so we have testing tuesday-thursday and im rlly frustrated because on wednesday i have to get up earlier than im used to for scholastic bowl practice so thats fun!!!!!
on another note i am very much fucked for two reasons and one of them is testing
the other reason is that i want to be a crushless (like not fallin in love with people) person until i know that i would actually consider having a relationship and taking it seriously but my feelings are just fucking me over
also ive gotten more obsessed with hamilton even though the last song i listened to was right hand man and im not even done with act one but thats okay
and im also really obsessed with lafayette and laurens and my god hamilton is making me feel patriotic??????
maybe thats not the best way to describe it but im like proud of america?? (certainly not proud of trump though fuck him)
but yeah, hamilton is also making me feel weird because lafayette and laurens are like my favourite characters??? but theyre not characters???
i guess the best way to describe them would be like personas?
i dont know im tired and i need to get my sleep ((its 10:45)) so gnight
- Grayson
