how life is when you're a piece of trash

oh finally a title in lowercase

i think i mightve talked about this before???

but i plan to be an author when i'm older,,

but sometimes i get ideas and instead of saying "tHAT WOULD MAKE A PERFECT BOOK" i think instead

"tHAT WOULD BE A NICE GAME"

it might be because whenever i talk to my brother he tells me about his game ideas because he's in college and has to do shit for his classes and stuff but yeah,,,

aND THEN I THINK ABOUT HOW PEOPLE LIKE YOUTUBERS WOULD REACT WHEN PLAYING SAID IDEA AND I GET EXCITED

i actually got an idea for a book a while ago and its title in my notes is just "IM AN AUTHOR NOT A GAME DEVELOPER GODDAMMIT"

maybe,, when i grow older i could find someone who makes games and (if they agree of course)) share the idea and help write and dialogue and such

i still plan to be an author though,,

oH

IM WRITING ABOUT THIS AGAIN THOUGH BC I WAS DOODLING IN MY NOTES DURING MATH CLASS AND I GOT A GREAT IDEA FOR A GAME,,,

((GAME BECAUSE IN MY OPINION IT WOULDNT WORK IN A STORY)

i know it looks really emo and shit but its an iDEA

so im envisioning that this man had a daughter or some little girl he was close too and he was really nice and talked to her and watched her grow up (he met her in like his early twenties and the story picks up in his mid-late thirties))

and shes now a teen and one day she just fucking disappears

the man who was a literal aNGEL, then slowly becomes more and more stressed and frustrated and angry at the world as the days shes been missing just past by

((ngl ive been getting princess x feels from this idea and maybe thats because thats been on my mind a lot)

and the "sir, shes DEAD" is a scene i imagined for when the man finds out the girl is 'dead'

((nails on a chalkboard is to describe the feeling of him finding out that shes dead))

then the "kill me softly" is something i just wrote down then i found a way to relate it to the story and now i have an idea that she was ((consensually) turned into a vampire or some other undead creature (or maybe a werewolf and when she mentions kill she means that the person is going to kill her mortal/mundane life))

and the stars on a bedroom ceiling is supposed to represent a feeling of belonging or comfort and how thats what her words did to whoever she said that to

in short,,, im an author not a game developer and i have a lot of ideas floating around in my head

- Grayson