You Are My Jam (BTS FANFIC)

33: Growing Love

JAMIE POV

It is now 3:10 am and Elizabeth is driving me back from the hospital. I am still shaking from the memory of my father's violence six hours ago. Tears are still in my eyes as I try not to break down. The pain is still alive and so is my fear. I can't believe this happened to me. I can't believe he...

He broke my leg.

I couldn't help it anymore. I broke down and Elizabeth pulled the car over. I looked at the cast on my leg as I sobbed.

"How am I going to DANCE?! Jimin is counting on me, my team is counting on me. What if I disappoint them, what if Jimin loses interest in me because I can't do what I have to." I said through my tears.

"Now don't be ridiculous. Jimin loves you for you and you know it. Don't say such things!" Elizabeth said.

"But... I don't love myself. I can't when I can't do the one thing I love most. I can't dance! It's what I do when I'm stressed from school. It's what I do when my own father beats and screams at me. Without it, I can't handle myself! And for how long? Weeks? Months?" I answered.

"Jamie..." Elizabeth said as tears lined her eyes as well. "Where were you earlier?"

"I was with Jimin." I cried. "Elizabeth he was sick. It was my fault and I had to take care of him." I said. She looked at me with a sad look.

"I'm so sorry Jamie. I should have done something... I should have gotten hurt instead." She said. I immediately stopped crying and wiped my tears.

"Don't even say that. Ever. It would hurt me more to know that you got injured instead of me." I said.

"Jamie... This isn't good for you... It's not good for your relationship." She said.

"Elizabeth I care about Jimin. I know this puts us in danger but... He loves me. We have only been dating a month, we are finally starting to get closer. We're happy. How am I supposed to put an end to that? I don't know what to do! I hurt him either way and I hate myself for ever making a situation like that for him. How do I put an end to our relationship without telling Jimin about my abusive father or without him hating me? I can't live with myself either way! I'm being selfish, but how am I supposed to end a relationship right after we said that we love each other." I said. She sighed as she hugged me.

"Okay okay. Sshhhh. Take a deep breath." She said. I did as I was told.

"We will figure this out, but for now, just take care of your body." She said.

"Elizabeth... I don't want to go home. What if he hurts me again?" I asked. She shook her head.

"He's probably in bed by now. I won't let him hurt you again okay? I will make sure you get to your room safely tonight." She said. Her assurance made me feel a little bit more secure.

She continued driving and about ten minutes later, we arrived at my house. I used my new crutches and Elizabeth helped me get into the house, up the stairs, and into my room. There, she helped me lay down as she tucked me in bed.

"If you feel any pain, call me. I'll be here." She said as she smiled at me. I nodded as she left my room. When she did, tears came back to my eyes as I looked at my leg. Of all body parts. My shoulder, my nose, even my arm... It had to be my leg. How long will it be before I can dance again? I blinked the tears away as I looked up. Mom? Why? Why did you leave me with him? I'm in pain. I'm broken. He won't stop until I do everything he wants... But I just can't do that anymore. I want to live my life... Help me break away... Please. I want to be happy with Jimin. I took a deep breath as I closed my eyes. Tears escaped them and slid down the side of my face.