Don't Let Me Go

Chapter 29

I sit beside Shannon's bed waiting for her to wake up. The doctors worked on her for a little while and they were able to get a pulse back. They don't believe she was down long without oxygen which I am thankful for. She is breathing on her own and not requiring a breathing machine. 

Sitting here waiting to hear her voice again reminds me of how much I love her and care about her. Shannon means the world to me and my heart can't take thinking about not having her here.

Camren's Mom has been watching Addison for me so that I can be here with Shannon. It has only been a day since the incident but I'm ready to hear from my baby. I don't understand why she would want to leave Addison and I behind. I know she has a lot going on and it is scary but suicide is not the way.

Elliott came by last night, I was nice enough to give her a few minutes to see Shannon. Camren said I was crazy for doing it but I mean, it still has to be traumatic to find someone who you know unresponsive. I just tried to think about it that way. The doctors made me aware that Shannon is on suicide watch which means she has someone sitting in her room at all times to make sure she is safe. It also means that we can't bring anything into the room that may be used as a weapon. It was crazy to have to go through this but I would go through anything to see my baby. 

The doctors told us that Shannon has a court order to be sent to a psychiatric facility for an evaluation and treatment once she is cleared medically. That to me is scary. That means she is going to be away from Addison and I and with everything going on I hope she can handle it.  I think the treatment will be good for her at the end of the day. I just want what's best for her.

I laid my head against her arm as I held her hand. My chair was pressed up against the bed getting as close as I could without being in the bed with her. It felt like magic when I felt her hand twitch in mine, my head shot up, my eyes wide in disbelief as her eyelids begin to move.

"Shannon? Baby, it's me. Logan." Shannon let out a low groan letting me know she heard me. I hit the nurse call button.

"Yes? May I help you?" I heard the voice over the intercom.

"Uh, I just wanted to let the nurse know that the patient is waking up."

"I will let her know."

I look back over at Shannon who is now looking back at me. She looks so distant but I can't be happier to see those beautiful brown eyes dull but with life in them.

"Hey baby." I lean down and gently kiss her lips. "I am so happy to see your eyes open. I have missed you so much." I watch as the corners of her mouth try to turn up into a smile.

"How long have I been out?" I brush my fingers across her lips, so happy to hear her voice.

"Only a day thank goodness. I don't know if I would have been able to handle any longer than that." she tried to smile once again and then it dropped into a frown. Tears started to form at the corner of her eyes.

"I'm so sorry Logan. I didn't know what else to do. It felt like my life was falling apart and all I could feel was the world closing in around me."

I put hands on each side of her face.

"Shh Shh Shh. Calm down, it's okay. Don't you worry about that right now. I feel so bad that I wasn't there for you and that you felt like you had to resort to that. I never want you to feel that way again."

We both looked up when we heard the door swing open.

"Oh my gosh. She's awake!!!" Kasey rushes through the door to the bedside with Cam right behind her carrying the coffee.