J A V I E R
"Talk to him! Make him change his mind! MAKE HIM CHANGE HIS MIND JAVIER!!!!" my fiance shouted. Wala nakong nagawa kundi yakapin siya.
"he can't bear all the responsibilities for something na hindi naman niya sinadya!!!" she kept on hitting my chest but I didn't let her go.
I know how mad she is after hearing what Ramon have said.
Pero wala akong magagawa.
Kahit kaibigan ko si Ramon, wala akong magagawa ngayon!
R A M O N
"I brought you some fruits. do you want me to peel an apple for you??" I asked pero tumingin lang siya sa ibang direksyon na para bang walang narinig.
I carried the tray saka ko ito pinatong sa bedside table niya nang bigla niya itong tinabig at natapon sakin ang laman nito.
I'm drenched with soup.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!" she yelled.
I'm not mad. I know I deserve this.
Yumuko ako para pulutin ang basag na bowl na nakakalat sa sahig.
"Hindi ka pa kumakain since this morning" I said. pero hindi parin niya ako pinapansin.
"Look! I'm sorry, hindi ko sinasad---"
"AANHIN KO YANG SORRY MO!!! BECAUSE OF YOU I LOST MY CHANCE ON COMPETING ON MY INTERNATINAL SWIMMING COMPETITION! NOW TELL ME ANONG MAGAGAWA NG SORRY MO!!!"
She shouted. I was left dumbfounded. I couldn;t react cos I know I am at fault.
"what can I do for you to forgive me??"
"I won't forgive you! I want you to suffer for the rest of your life!!!"
"do you want me to jump off this building? SIguro kung pareho na tayong nabalian ng buto mapapatawad mo na ak---"
"DON'T MAKE FUN OF ME!!! YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND MY FEELING DAHIL HINDI IKAW ANG NAWALAN NG PANGARAP! IT WAS MY DREAM SINCE I WAS A KID TO WIN THAT COMPETITION! PERO DAHIL SAYO KAHIT KELAN HINDING HINDI KO NA PWEDENG MAGAWA YON! SO STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL GOOD DAHIL KAHIT MALASOG LASOG PA YANG KATAWAN MO SA PAGTALON MO HINDING HINDI KITA MAPAPATAWAD!!!!"
Para akong nanghina matapos marinig iyon.
I feel so helpless.
I feel like dying,
I can't bear to be happy with the one I love knowing there is someone suffering on my account.
