January 28, 2015
I knew him since freshman year
He was my sister's classmate
And once he seemed all I ever wanted
I started paying attention
Because of that,
I thought I knew him
But, in fact, I didn't
And I discovered that in the worst way possible
But even in college,
Just like a stubborn grown-up kid old for teddy bears
I still carried him around
I couldn't let him be taken away from me
I kept holding onto him
He helped me feel better
But in the next moment made me feel worse
Nobody noticed my teddy bear
I was so used to keep him hidden
But one thing I couldn't hide was
How I was failing so hard
But I just couldn't notice how he was one of the reasons behind
After all, I only saw
How his smile was something beautiful
How his smile was my private rainbow
How my old self thought I would never get tired of seeing him
In that wooden bench day after day
That was my mistake
Those good, playful memories were the fake ones
This teddy bear was never mine to play with
And the truth is
Hey,
I'm too old to play with dolls
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