Four Years [Poetry]

18. Caffeine

November 19, 2013 / October 06, 2013

It took me 400 days to wake up

But now I have my caffeine

And in this dream again

I won't fall in

(Not again)

Me, the shy and introspective girl,

Couldn't distinguish the reality from fiction

Lost in tons of memories I have all the transcriptions

Was I the one to blame for?

No, I never felt anything like that before

My illusions were holding me strong

Luring me for so long

That what was real wasn't in my mind

But I started trying to open my eyes

I needed a dose of caffeine

So I could fully wake up from the dream

My heart couldn't stand any longer

Full enough of the memories that haunted me only

So I went ahead

And all I felt I said

Of course it wasn't face to face

But that didn't mean that no answer was okay

The emptiness made the caffeine's effect improve

Then, a blur was my mind

'Till I got a reply

That made me finally see the morning light

Too much time wasted

Too many illusions created

And, in the next moment

It was all faded

But now there is no more ache

Tonight I'm fully awake

Caffeine works great

I no longer deceive myself

It's gone all the spells

And he is gone, as well