my eyes were weary while more tears continued to brim and flow down my face creating wet tracks on my cheeks and bloodshot eyes as if i've been crying for days.
i totally lost it.
if only i wasn't so stubborn and actually listened to what they all told me, i wouldn't of have gotten hurt. i wouldn't had to push everyone away.
all because of this stupid heart that was beating uncontrollably for that girl.
i shout in anger and sorrow, not caring whom was around me. they probably thought i was a fool or something yelling out in public. i mean, if i were to look at myself, i'd think the same thing. except, i'd be more then a fool. i'd be reckless.
completely reckless that i've lost every single happiness and brightness that was left in me. it was just the gloomy and pitiful jungkook there was left.
the broken or in other words shattered to pieces.
that was me.
my head was swung low and i had no idea where my feet were leading me to. even if i ended up falling in the river, falling off a bridge or getting hit by a car, i was no longer afraid.
the only thought that scares me is loving someone while they love someone else.
the only thing to fear of was to love.
my phone starts to ringing but i didn't bother to check or even answer. i didn't want to deal with anymore people. the more i spend time around those i love, results me in getting hurt.
"am i going to get hurt all the time?!" i shout, earning a few people's attention.
my head lifted up while i watched each car pass by quickly, thinking of little scenarios in my head. a red sports car was coming by but was a bit too far from me. i step out slowly on the road, counting slowly while it was at the same pace of my walking.
slowly but not too slow, the car was coming closer. at anytime, i could get hit.
i stood there waiting for it to come by faster so that i could easily jump out and end everything.
"seven"
"eight"
"nine"
"t-"
a figure prevents me from jumping out as we crashed down onto the cement. her light body on top of me while i groaned in pain. around us was a crowd of people perhaps a few already finding out who i was already.
i stood up quickly and ignored the remarks and questions everyone asked. all i had to do was get out of there before anyone can post anything.
the girl who stopped me,
who was she?
