surprisingly it was raining today, the clouds filled with so much gloom and water that has finally been let out for so long. I somehow could relate to the weather as it left me in such awe.
i never really get attracted to the rain but today it was different. my gaze was focused towards the window while i observed the rain drops pouring down my glass window. it slid down alongside with many other water droplets that left wet tracks.
it amazes me of how much water pours down during this kind of weather, it was a lot of amount but it was a good use for many things in this world. Although, if a human being let's out many tears, does it bring anything good?
i sigh and took off my earphones throwing it on my bed as it left me agitated. my actions lately bothered me a lot and it left me with so much curiosity and confusion.
the wound in my heart definitely is still fresh, not even a single bit has recovered. it flusters me a lot that i felt this way. there was no one to blame but myself.
"pabo for even loving."i muttered to myself with a slight grunt.
perhaps the rain has it's limits and can slowly stop, but my tears. It was unstoppable. At times I could control them, but once I can't, it just flows and flows until I fall into a deep sleep.
my thoughts were filled with curiosity , so much questions that couldn't be answered and it bothers me a lot. i wanted to ask Jiyoon so much questions that I couldn't ask her, but it was a lot to ask for.
a little knock bangs on my door distracting me from my thoughts, so I stood up and opened the door to be welcomed by Namjoon.
"it's time to eat." he says,
"arasso eomma." i say while rolling my eyes,
at last i was starting to open up more and was able to speak often to them. i couldn't stand the tension between all of us and it upset me of how i closed my door on them. they're my brothers that i'm suppose to depend on, but i shut them out. all because of this pain in the heart.
i walk out of my room following namjoon towards the kitchen that was filled with loud noises. this was the typical aura i was always hearing in the dorm.
i chuckled while watching all of them fight over the food while namjoon and jin tried to argue and fix the mess. but knowing namjoon, he makes more mess so jin has to clean everything up.
"you guys are such drama queens." jimin says,
"you're not fun at all" says hoseok,
here it goes again.
"jimin has no jams." namjoon says while everyone laughed except for jimin whom looked annoyed.
"kookie let's eat!" says Jin while motioning me over,
i did so and sat at the table in between taehyung and yoongi.
"you finally joined us maknae, it's great to have you here again." says namjoon.
throughout lunch, hoseok talked nonstop and teased Jimin while they had an argument that lasted pretty long. Taehyung on the other hand wanted to blow bubbles so he volunteered to wash the dishes which in results is him making bubbles with his hands and not washing any dishes at all.
namjoon, as usual controlled the kids while jin and yoongi were quietly using their phones while eating.
and me, i was entertained at what was happening.
these boys are such idiots.
don't count me in.
