A Beautiful Disaster

Chapter 14

Marissa pulled me with her. "Come on Dems", she said. I felt more tears rolling down my face.

As soon as we turned around the corner she pulled me in for a hug.

"She.. She is already dating someone else..", I said as I held on to her jacket. "Just forget about it okay? Forget about her", she said rubbing my back. I pulled away. "How am I supposed to do that?", I said wiping away my tears. "Just, get away for a while. Go to Europe for a year or something. It'll be good for you", she said.

I nodded. "Yeah, maybe." I looked up at her and smiled. "Thanks", I added. She nodded. "I'll take you home", she said.

We walked back to the car.

On our way back to my house, all I could think about was Rae and her.. new girlfriend.

"Dems", Marissa said snapping me out of my thoughts. "Yeah?", I said. "Stop thinking about her. You're only hurting yourself." I nodded. "I know. But it's hard." "I know that. I do. But you have to try", she said.

She pulled up in the driveway.

"Thanks Maris", I said. She smiled. "Forget about her okay?" I nodded. "See you later", I said as I shut the car door.

I opened the front door and walked in, shutting the door behind me.

"I'll never get used to the silence", I said to myself.

I put down my stuff and took off my jacket. I sat down on the couch and threw off my heels. "Fuckers", I said rubbing my foot.

I got up and walked upstairs and into the bathroom to take off my makeup. I opened the cabinet the get my creme when I noticed Rae's spare toothbrush.

"Fuck this", I said. I grab the toothbrush and threw it in the bin. "Go fuck yourself."

I washed my face and got changed into my comfy clothes.

I walked into my music room and sat behind my piano. It had been a while since I've sat down and made music.

I started playing and waited for the right note.

Then I started.

It's probably what's best for you
I only want the best for you
And if I'm not the best then you're stuck
I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind
Like you're pouring salt in my cuts

And I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart

Even though I know what's wrong
How could I be so sure
If you never say what you feel, feel
I must have held your hand so tight
You didn't have the will to fight
I guess you needed more time to heal

Baby, I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart

Ooh, ooh
Whoa, whoa
Yeah
Ooh, ooh
Whoa, whoa
Whoa, whoa
Oh, oh
Yeah

You must be a miracle worker
Swearing up and down
You can fix what's been broken, yeah
Please don't get my hopes up
No, no, baby, tell me how could you be so cruel?

It's like you're pouring salt on my cuts

Baby, I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart

Baby, I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart
Oh no, no, no
You never really can fix a heart
Oh no, no, no
You never really can fix a heart
Oh-oh, oh, oh-oh yeah-oh, oh, oh, oh
You never really can fix my heart

I let out a deep sigh and got up. It felt really good to express myself in music again.

I walked back downstairs and opened my laptop.

I went to google and typed in what I needed.

"Plane tickets to Europe."