A Beautiful Disaster

Chapter 9

It had been 4 days since Rae left. I had never felt so bad, so depressed, so worthless. I had been texting and calling her non stop, but she never answered.

Then I realised I still had a few unopened texts from when she was in England. I opened one and instantly fell in love all over again.

Her smile was one that makes your heart literally skip a beat. Her eyes were a pair of beautiful blue crystals. In them, was a whole world full of light.

I heard keys at the door. I stood up and waited for the door to swing open.

"Rae", I said as she walked in. "I'm just here to pick up the rest of my stuff", she said. "Can we please talk about this", I said as tears started to roll down my face. "I don't have anything to say to you." She ran upstairs, and I followed her.

"I'm sorry", I said. I stopped in the doorway as I watched her gather all her stuff. Even the baggy shirts she had always let me sleep in.
She looked at me.
"Sorry isn't going to fix this, Demi..", she said. "I know that.. But I don't know what else to do. You keep leaving. You won't even talk to me." "Is that so crazy?", she said. Her voice got a bit louder.

"No, I didn't mean that. But I regret it so much, you have no idea. And I don't want to see you walk out the door again", I said.

"Do you think I like this? Do you think I like leaving you here, knowing that you're hurting? No, of course not. But I'm hurting too. I can't comfort you, when you're the reason we're both feeling like this..", she said.

Tears were coming down her face, causing me to cry too. I wrapped my arms around her neck and held her tightly. She didn't pull away. She actually hugged me back.

I burried my face in her shoulder.

Her hand moved up and down my back, comforting me. "I miss you", I said. "Me too."

She pulled away and wiped away my tears. "Please stay", I said. She carefully shook her head. "I can't. I need time to think about this", she said.

She grabbed her stuff. "I'll see you soon", she said. She kissed my cheek and walked away. "I love you", I said. "I know", she said looking back at me.

I heard the door shut.

She said soon. Which meant she did want to talk. A small smile formed on my face as I moved my hand to the spot she had just kissed.

I walked downstairs and found her house key on the cabinet with small note.

"I promise I won't barge in like that anymore. I'll knock when I'm ready to talk. i love you."

She still loved me..

-

A few days had past and I hadn't heard anything from her yet. But I kept hoping.

I cleaned the house and cooked myself dinner. It had been a while since I had actual food.

My life had just got a bit better ever since Rae said she'll see me soon. I was patiently waiting for that moment to come. And I was prepared for it.
I made sure the house was clean everyday. I made the bed. I made dinner enough for two. I even got properly dressed and put on makeup. You could tell I had a lot of hope.

The doorbell rang.

I opened the door, hoping it was Rae.

"Hi, I have a package for miss Lovato?", the man said. "That's me." "Sign here please", he said handing me his clipboard. I did as he said and took the package. "Have a nice day", he said. "Thanks, you too."

I shut the door and walked into the living room.

I opened it and found a stuffed animal, with a note.

"I hope you'll change your mind about it. Call me when you do x."

Her number was written in the note. "No, not again", I said to myself.

I walked into the yard and threw the bear on the ground. I searched for lighter or matches. As soon as I found a pack of matches, I walked back into the yard. I set it on fire and just watched it burn.

"You won't ruin my life anymore."