Ally
Seeing Lauren spending time with Lucy has been bothering me the most and I don't know how to tell her. Lauren and Lucy been friends ever since like forever. Lucy is so cool and nice and all but I just hope she doesn't take my girl away from me. I get it they have a history together, yada yada, and yeah maybe I don't have to worry anything but seeing her in person with Lauren makes me wonder if I'm good enough, beautiful, cool and hip or whatever Lauren sees in her.
I don't know if Lauren even cares about us, or even me, it feels like she ignores me when she's with Lucy. Right now as example, they're eating lunch sitting next to each other too closely in my opinion. I know I may have been thinking too much about this thing but I can't think of any other thing than she's trying to get back with Lauren. Dinah saw me with a little sad expression, and she put her arms around my shoulders.
"You wanna tell me what's wrong smalls?
"It's nothing, DJ"
"You sure?"
Dinah and I were watching Lauren and Lucy laughing really loud with each other. It's something about her. I don't trust Lucy.
"Smalls, you can tell Lauren you're jealous of Lucy."
"I'm not."
"Well let's go see what's so funny with those two."
"I uh, don't want to. Can we watch a movie?"
" Okay smalls."
I sat up in our back lounge couch and curled up to DJ as she was my little sister, and taller than me, yet I'm oldest and tiny. How funny is that? The next minute I was crying. I couldn't hold in anymore. I know Lauren loves me and she knows we're together, but maybe I'm not good enough for her anymore.
"Aw, smalls, it's going to be okay."
"I don't know Dinah, she always ignores me when she's here. Yesterday she hung out with my family and I saw her talking to Brandon and I know Troy got along but it was different with Lauren and Brandon. It was like this could really happen. I could actually see my future with her. Dinah I love her so much, but with Lucy, I feel like I can loose her just like that."
"Dinah Jane, um do you mind if Ally and I can talk?
I saw my girlfriend standing there hearing everything. I got very scared of what was going to happen. Dinah told me to breathe and be honest.
"Um, Dinah, texted me telling me to come up, I didn't know you were feeling all of that. I love you so much, Allyson, you have idea how much I really do. I would never ever think messing this up. You're my girl. No one else and that includes Lucy. We're just friends, I swear. She's with some other girl from school she met and she's really happy. I'm so happy with you Ally, you have no idea how much I want to be with you. You're so important to me, Ally."
"Laur, I love you so much, I'm so sorry, I'm guess I was so jealous of Lucy and how close you were earlier and I guess it really hurt me and I didn't want to lose you babe, you're mean so much too. I don't want to miss this up either.
She stood closer to me to wipe my tears and to cup my face.
"You're more than enough for me Ally, don't you ever doubt that ever again and by the way you're so damn hot when you're jealous."
I laughed and hit her playfully and kissed her lips.
"I love you baby girl. Don't you ever forget that."
" I won't, I love you too."
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