Hey so sorry if these chapters been so short, but at least there is some updates! I didn't want you think I forgot this one! I've been feeling sad and lonely lately and i don't know how to make myself happy again. My ex and I have been on and off being "friends" she's really complicated. I feel like she's been using me and only want to talk to me because I help her with her bills. ( I know its bad or why do I) I feel like the only way we could be something again if I show her that I can hold down the bills, spoil her ( which in her world is shopping or getting her nails done) and apparently that's what she wants to do if we "hangout" other things is to her "boring" I thought if I do this with her, she would be with me. I'm having hard time where she says its not about the money, where clearly it is, because if I don't help her, she doesn't say much but if I do, she asks so many questions which is like basic questions but I know now it's not healthy, its hurting me and I just don't know what to do. I really thought I would have a chance with her but I feel like it's never enough for her. No matter what I do, she wants more or she gets mad. She changed and I don't like the person she's becoming.
I don't know about dating apps because even though I'm 29, I still don't know how to drive so I always rely on my mom so I don't know how would I trust meeting someone who I met online and I don't trust uber because I don't trust strangers. It's just not my thing.
Other thing is if anyone want to show me how to make gifs from youtube videos so I can put more Alren gifs on these stories, I will be more grateful :)
- Jazzy
