Lauren
Waking extra confident and extra early was something I wanted to do today. My mind was all over the place. I just have so much to say but it's exciting news. I was coming out today. (I'm so proud of her, and I know she's bi now, but in this one she's gay)
I was finishing up my letter to Billboard and just proofread as I read over again. I took a breath and close one eye and pressed sent. I started to cry of joy. Of the weight off my shoulders. Of proud I am of myself. The truth is out. No more secrets and lying to them. The night before, I sat down talking to my girls.
"What's wrong Lolo?" My favorite girl, Ally asked me. We were all resting from a busy day rehearsing.
"I have something to tell you all." I looked at all of them. They automatically sat down forming a circle.
"Yo, Lauren, whatever it's going through your head we're here for you and we love you." Dinah told me. I smiled at her and I started to cry.
Ally rubbed my back and put her head on my shoulder.
"I love you guys. But um... I'm gay." I looked at all of for a moment and the next minute I was tackled on the ground.
"Lauren you can be all yellow like The Simpsons and I'll still love you. I'm proud of you." Camila said.
"You're crazy Camz, but thanks love you too."
"Proud of you Lauren, this doesn't change anything but that you're gonna help a lot of people and I couldn't be any more proud and happy to be your friend. I love you." Normani said to me.
"You're gonna make me cry more! Stop it, I love you too."
I looked at Dinah as she was crying.
"Awe, DJ. Come here. " I hugged this girl like it was the first time we became friends.
" I'm just so proud and Mani is right, you're gonna help so many people and we're always be by your side. I love you!"
"I love you so much." I looked at her and then looked at Ally but she wasn't there.
"Where's Ally?" All of us looked around and just noticed our little one wasn't there.
" Ally?"
No response. I had to find her.
"I'll be right back, gotta find her."
The girls smiled and gave me hugs and I left to find her.
I decided to call her maybe I can find her that way. I looked around and heard her ringtone for me. I noticed it was different from the others.
"Hi."
She looked like she has been crying.
"Lo, I'm really proud of you and I still love you, I don't want you think I don't support you because I really do. You have no idea how much I really care about you."
"I really thought you were disappointed at me. You weren't there when Camila told me that if I was yellow like The Simpsons.
"She really said that?" I heard her laugh. It was my favorite.
"Yeah she's crazy but I still love her."
"Yeah she is."
"Ally are you scared of me?"
"No no, never I mean maybe when you team up with Dinah with pranks but you, never."
"Then what's wrong, why were you crying?"
" Lauren, I'm not scared of you, but I'm scared of telling you of how I really feel about you."
"Wait, how do you really feel about me?"
I sat down next to her and she moved a closer away.
"You're so brave, important, one of my favorite and best friend and I don't want to mess up our friendship because you're so so special to me, Lauren I love you dearly but I can't hide my feelings for you. I really like you a lot and I'm just scared of what you would think about this."
I looked at my best friend as she was looking at me with her wet eyes and I put my hands on her cheeks and just kissed her cute lips.
"I wasn't sure if you were feeling it too. I didn't say anything because I didn't want to mess up our friendship either but every time I'm around I can't help but I get butterflies in my tummy, my heart is racing and you're always on my mind. I really like you too, Ally."
She kissed me and I swore I heard fireworks but I think it was our crazy friends cheering. I looked back and saw all of them crying. We laughed and I hugged Ally.
We got up and I gave them all a group hug. I appreciated all the support and the love I got from them and especially Ally.
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The next morning I was at my laptop next to my favorite girl. I smiled at her as she was still sleeping and she looked so beautiful.
I can't believe I kissed her. Ever since I saw the short girl in her hot pink shirt and cute fedora hat, I was so so scared to even to talk to her because she made me feel something I never knew it could happen. I was so happy when we got to be in a band together. She quickly became my favorite friend and the closest thing I had. I think we all have different bonds with each other that somehow we're all friends and so close together. I mean me Camz have a lot of common of being Cuban, and being from Miami, Dinah we got along with our music and we love to party and pull out pranks together. Normani oh man she's my sister for real. I got so many things I can say about each girl and I would do anything for them.
I started crying again because these girls mean so much to me and I can't imagine my life without them.
"Hey babe, what's wrong?" I looked around and I saw the girl who makes me smile.
"I just came out and i told you how I really feel."
"Aww I know babe. I'm so so proud of you, but right now I want to kiss your pretty lips and cuddle."
"Ha. Me too baby."
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I'm so so proud of Lauren. I remember when I was so scared coming out to my brother and sister and coming out to my parents. It was hardest thing ever. But they support and love me and that's all it matters to me. For Lauren to come out doesn't seem so real because I could've told her a long time ago but I'm so glad the girls support her which I figure they would but it's amazing what they had say to her. I love you Lauren Michelle Jauregui.
