I have no idea what I'm doing. What did I get myself into? I know I'm not leaving her side. That not my thing. People leave me. I love spoiling her so much. It's some of my favorite things about her.
We've been talking on the phone for almost 3 months. We haven't met in person, but we have FaceTime and Snapchat, so I know she's real. She tells me the truth and what's going on her mind. She tells me that she doesn't know what's going to happen but have high hopes on "us" if there's even an us. She knows I don't want just be her friend, I want to be more than that.
We met through Instagram, I came across her page, and I thank god, I did. She's really special and something I've been praying for. She makes me want to be a better person, she knows what she wants to do, after school, she has a good heart, a good person. She makes my day a lot better when I'm having a bad day. Because of her voice, I feel safe in someway, I don't know how to explain.
The first time we ever talked on the phone, I was so anxious, because I didn't know what she would sound like or why she would want to talk me in the first place. I told her I liked her, but she would tell me, "I'm not ready for a relationship or I'm focusing on school." I just wanted to get to know her, and so far, I still like her and still want to see this goes.
With Lauren I feel so comfortable telling her stuff that I normally don't tell people, I told her secrets, that not even my best friend, Normani knows and Normani and I been friends since we were little. That's how I know she's really special. I now can't sleep okay without Lauren on the phone with me and she feels the same way with me.
I don't know why I have to live in Texas and my dream girl lives in Miami. I have told her that I want to meet her but she doesn't know when its a good time because of school and me inviting her is something I have considered for her but again school is in the way.
Laur 💚 is calling
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L; Hey
A; Hi
L; Hey what are you doing?
A; watching some tv, how was school today?
L; school was good, I took my test and guess what?
A; what?
L; I passed! I did!
A; congrats, Laur! I knew you could do it!
L; thank you, Als!
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So basically this story is kinda what is sorta going on with the girl I really like. She keeps telling me we're just friends, but she has feelings for me too.. I don't know.. any advice? expect the best friend thing, but I do have friends but I don't open up to them as I do with her. She's really special.
