Sidemen Imagines

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⚠️WARNING DEPRESSING THOUGHTS AND SELF HARM! PLEASE READ AT YOUR RISK! THERE'S OFFENCE USE OF LANGUAGE AND HOMOPHOBIC ABUSE!⚠️ Please make sure you read A/N at the end⚠️

Simon's POV~

I am a failure.

I am worthless.

I'm ugly.

I hate myself.

Nobody cares about me.

Nobody loves me.

I'm getting ready to go to hell - I mean school and I'm absolutely dreading school because I get bullied by these 4 guys.

I went to take a shower to wake me up, I just love the warm water, it soothes my aching body. I look at the cuts that were on my arms, they are healing but I'm still cutting every now and then.

My mum and dad had passed away so I'm the only person earth left but it won't be long till I go. I want people to help me but I'm scared of letting people in.

I left my house - a place where i could stay forever and no one would know. I walk to school just getting ready to receive beatings.

I walk into the school building and there's already people staring at me.

haven't people got better things to do than torment me on a Monday morning?

"Hey, look there's Simon that ugly looking gay cunt!" I heard JJ say.

"Ewww... What is that lanky prick wearing?" Ethan said.

"You need to sort your fucking life out, gay twat!" Harry spat in my face.

(quick an; originally I wanted to put Vik in Harry's place but Vik is too Innocent for that shit)

"You should go an kill yourself!" Tobi said.

I tried walking away but the next thing you know, I'm being kicked down and then being punched in the face, kicked in the stomach and stepped on my ribs.

I just lay there waiting for life just to throw me out of here.

no one here accepted I was gay...

I regret telling people.

my mum and dad aren't even here to comfort me.

I got up slowly and went to my first lesson which was maths, the thing I hated about maths was JJ would sit behind me and kick my chair then throw me off the chair.

I had no chance of fighting back, I have let this bullying go on for 2 years by the same people.

I asked the teacher if I could go to the toilet and luckily she said yes, I locked my self in the disabled toilet because no one would find me here. I rolled up my sleeve and got out a blade from my pocket then slowly began to cut my arm that was healing. I watched the blood seeping furiously as I hissed in pain, but the pain felt good.

I cleaned up the cut and put a bandage around it so it won get infected, what was the point no one would ever go near me... I was lonely, depressed and there's nights where I don't sleep at all because I'm worried that one of them will find my house and beat me to my death.

I headed back to maths and I went to sit on my chair till JJ moved it making me fall and hit my head on the edge of the table causing it to bleed then he kicked my back making me scream out in pain.

I left the classroom as I headed to the first aid room, they gave me something to keep my head from bleeding and also some paracetamol to prevent headaches.