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S I M O N ' S P O V ~
Everyone thought I was that guy that would be happy and screaming, you know just a fun guy... But what they don't know is that I am not okay.
I am lost in a little world in my head that is locked, locked to the point, where you need a key.
I had a rough childhood, my parents would beat me, call me a failure and eventually they told me to take my things and get out.
my own two parents that was supposed to love me and care for me.
I lost the most precious girl that meant so much to me, she died in a car crash... Everyday I am still crying, pain is killing me. Every time I go to her parents house, my heart feels the pain getting stronger.
My girlfriend of 5 years and no one understands that when you lose someone that you love, they think it's easy to move on.
well it ain't because it was the closet thing to you!
I want to tell my friends, what's going through my head but I don't know how.
I need help but I can't explain how I need the help.
I decided to go to Jide's because I just need someone to talk to, I didn't care if I looked like a mess but I just had to do something to get my head out of the gutter.
I knocked on the door and Jide opened as he's mouth dropped in the sight of me.
"Oh my god! Simon, are you okay?" He said pulling me in and closing the door taking me to his bedroom.
"I'm fine? Why do I look different?" I said.
"Simon, if you looked in the mirror, your skeleton would jump out of you!" He said.
I looked on the mirror, I saw myself and I didn't even recognise myself. I had seriously dark circles under my eyes, I had lost weight on my face... My eyes were bloodshot.
"Simon, what's going through your head?" JJ said looking at me deeply.
"Remember Gabriella?" I said as he nodded.
"Yeah, why?" He said getting worried.
"Well she died in a car crash last month, my girlfriend of 5 years is dead! And I can't do nothing about it, so all I do is cry, cry and cry... My parents kicked me out of the house when I was just 16 and I can't deal with it anymore!" I said crying again.
"I feel like... I feel like– how the fuck do I explain myself when I don't know what's going on in my head!" I cried.
"Simon, you just need to take a breather! I know it's been very hard for the last couple of years but I want you to know that I am always here for you!" JJ said to me as he cuddled me very tightly.
I cried on his shoulders, he was always there when I needed somebody! He took my hand sat me on the bed as he cuddled next to me.
"I know it hard, sometimes you have to cry just to let the sadness come out! Also, please don't start blaming yourself, it wasn't your fault!" JJ said as he pecked my cheek gently.
Me and JJ would always do that, just peck each other's cheek, the bromance was there, you know... I smiled as he wiped my tears!
"Thanks Jide!" I said as cuddled him tightly.
"You're welcome!" He said.
I got up as I took off my jumper and my sweatpants, I wiped my fresh tears and laid my head in JJ's chest as I felt his hands rubbing my back gently.
