Sidemen Imagines

• wroetomd (3) {part 3}

"What's going through your head?" Chris asked while stroking my back gently.

"I need your help to take him out!" I said as I laid on his lap.

"Don't let me be gone!"

"DON'T LET ME BE!" I screamed as held my hair from the roots.

I couldn't calm myself down, the darkness is too much. I jumped out of the bed and went to the corner of my room and sat down.

"Though, I'm weak and beaten down, I'll slip away into this sound!" I said as I rocked back and forth.

Chris comes running towards me.

"Help me!" I cried.

"Please, help me!" I held onto him.

"Harry, look at me!" He said.

I looked at him, I stared into his eyes and I saw love. I calmed my body down, he hugged me as he carried me onto the bed.

"All those flashbacks, they keep coming back."

"I don't want them!"

"Though, I'm weak and beaten down!"

"I am goner!" I said as closed my eyes.

"Baby, look at me!" Chris said.

He called me baby.

I looked at him and he stroked my hair.

"Tell me what's going on in your mind, let me in, let me in on the darkness you're going through I want to feel your pain." He said holding me.

"The darkness is too dark for you to handle." I said.

I got out of his arms and laid with my back and looking up at the ceiling.

"There was two girls, they bullied me because I was gay. At first I thought they were making gay jokes because I can take that but it all changed when they started physically started abusing me. Since then, I've started cutting... I've tried to commit suicide 3 times. I am so near but something is always holding me back." I said as carried on looking at the ceiling.

"There's voices in my head that will say negative things to me. They don't want me to succeed, I find it hard to laugh, to smile, to eat... I am tired, exhausted, these nightmares won't ever stop!" I said going deep into my black clouded mind.

"Sometimes when I'm here alone the silence can be so violent. I've tried to explaining it to my friends but they don't fucking understand and now I just sit here in silence. I want to be set free."

"And when I tried to tell my friends, what was going on... They said that I had to snap out of it and that I was too deep, what they don't know that I am just ready to kill myself. Somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence!"

"My arms are beginning to ache, the release of blood is the most perfect thing ever!" I said.

"I wanna be known by you!" I said.

I felt Chris's lips on my mine, I kissed him back. We pulled away and I smiled as I pulled him close to me.