Sidemen Imagines

• ksimon (15)

flashback;

We was arguing again. Arguing to the point, where I watched you walk out of the house with tears streaming down your face. I tried calling you back but you just ignored me. I sat down for a second before deciding to chase after you, I ran out of the house and I saw that you was walking across the road on your phone.

"SIMON, GET OFF THE ROAD!" I screamed.

When you heard me you reaction was late and the car hit you! I screamed at the top of my lungs as I saw your body laying on the floor lifeless.

I ran to you, I saw you had cut your head open and there was cuts on your chest. I called the ambulance immediately, the guy hit you didn't even bother to get out of his shitty ass car to help me... He just watched like he wanted this to happen, I noted his number plate so I could report him to the police.

We have arrived the hospital and they would let me sit inside with you, the doctors wouldn't even let me be with my boyfriend by his side.

I called the guys and told them that you got run over and they were devastated to hear that so they are on their way.

I started crying, I was so stupid to get into an argument again. I didn't even tell you that I loved you, it happened so quick. The guys finally got here, I couldn't stand to see their face. I felt so much shame inside me that I felt like jumping off a bridge hoping to catch my eye on a sharp tip of a rock.

"JJ?" Josh said as he touched my shoulder gently.

I still refused to look at them, I didn't want them to see me cry but I couldn't keep it in anymore, I was going to break. I turned around and saw their sad faces, I broke down, my soul couldn't handle the emotions.

They all came closer to me and hugged me deeply, I was sobbing heavily, I opened my mouth to speak.

"We was arguing. I overreacted, I should have just let it go! I made him cry with pain pouring down his eyes, I watched him cross the road. I saw the car coming, I yelled for him to get off the road but his reaction was late that the car hit him..." I said as I got up slowly.

I walked to the door that you was inside and I couldn't see anything but a curtain just covering the window.

"I am such a huge fuck up! Look at my boyfriend... I may have caused him his life because of my fucking actions!" I cried as I started walking up and down pouring out my thoughts.

"You are not a huge fuck up, sometimes we all don't think about things and we make those mistakes. Don't give up hope for Simon, he loves you and you love him." Harry said hugging me tightly.

"Thanks, bro!" I said.

I sat back down and watched the red light hoping for it to turn green, I just want you beside me! I want to hug you and tell you that I'm sorry.

4 and a half hours later...

I've seen doctors come in and out of the room, they haven't told me anything and I'm now beginning to get super worried. The doctors they would look at me with no emotions so it was hard to read them.

"Come on, Simon! You can pull through, don't leave me!" I said looking at the door.

I called your parents and told them the problem, they are on their way here. I just hope they won't blame it on me because it's a lot of pressure to take.

I saw them coming and I started crying, your parents hugged me and told me everything was going to be alright. I told them what happened between us and they gave their sympathies.

I offered them to seat down as i got up and started walking around again - walking was the only thing to keep my mind at ease.

I looked at the light and it began switching from red to green then back to red. I began to panic, I am watching the light change every 10 minutes.

Please wake up, I need you!

"Is JJ here?" The doctor said.

I put my hand up as he called me into a room to talk about your condition!

"I'm afraid I have some bad news..." He said giving me a sad smile.

My heart was beginning to beat faster, what was he going to tell me? I didn't say anything, I just stared.

"I'm afraid that Simon didn't make it... The impact was so hard that he was in shock and eventually his heart gave up!" He said.

"What? No, please tell me it's a lie!" I said as my voice started breaking.

"I'm sorry JJ, you and your friends can say your goodbyes!" He said leaving me.

I started crying heavily as I walked out and they saw me in tears.

I had to tell them that you didn't make it, in front of your parents and my friends, it was so hard to get myself to grips that you are no longer with us.

Your family and our friends was looking at me, I couldn't handle the pain, I fell onto my knees and started crying heavily. I couldn't believe that you was gone.

"He didn't make it!" I cried.

"What?" Your parents said in unison.

"The doctor said that the impact was so hard that he was in shock that his heart just gave up on him!" I cried.

"I'm sorry, Mr and Mrs. Minter! I got into an argument before all this happened and now my boyfriend is dead. This is all my fault, I didn't even get the chance to say that I love him." I said.

"Oh, JJ, darling, don't take it hard on yourself. We just now that he's resting now! Please don't take all the pressure on your shoulders!" Your mum said.

I hugged your parents as the rest of the sidemen hugged us as one big group. We pulled away and I walked to the door you was staying in.

I saw your lifeless body all pale, I held your hands. They used to be warm but they were ice cold. Everyone walked in and saw your body, I began sobbing as I laid my head on your chest.

"Simon, I'm so sorry!"

"I love you so much!" I cried.