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Only some will understand how Josh is feeling... I understood this so well because I feel the same way.

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Josh is a funny, outgoing boy and every one thinks that he's a happy person 24/7. He is always helping people out when they need him but when he needs them...

No one is there.

It got to the point, where he couldn't hold anything in anymore.

Pain that he couldn't keep inside for long.

Tears that kept falling because the pain was too much.

Having to put up with people that doesn't understand him.

He just want someone to stand there and hear his problems but no one is there.

He always has thoughts of just running, running to somewhere he can figure out his own problems.

His parents thinks he is depressed but he isn't. He is just tired! Not tired as in he needs sleep, he's tired of everything.

He feels trapped.

He feels like he was throwing into a room with a straight jacket on him because people thinks he is crazy.

All he wants is love and understanding.

But no one is there out to reach him, he is constantly trying to explain his problems but every time he tries, he doesn't know how to put the words together.

"I wish someone would understand me!"

"Someone that will understand my pain that I feel!"

"I'm tired of feeling like this everyday."

"I'm tired of having to be two different personalities just to show people my emotions!"

"I'm tired of crying myself to sleep EVERY FUCKING NIGHT!"

"Is there anybody here to save me?"

"To save me from my drowning thoughts!"

"My thoughts of running away!"

"My thoughts of not caring!"

"My thoughts constantly screaming at me!"

"Just help me... Set me free! Is all I ask! Make me feel like a calm person and not a person with a heavy, stressed shoulders."

He spoke to himself yet while writing in his diary that he keeps. He decided to get dressed and go out for a walk, his first thought was Starbucks. Starbucks will make you feel very much at home.

He ordered a strawberry and cream frappe as he went to find a seat just to sit by himself and no one was around him looking at him. He's thoughts was raging at him and in the end, he couldn't handle it. He let all the tears fall as he so sobbed quietly.

all the pain that he has bottled up has finally started pouring out.

all the sadness that he has kept inside is now slowly turning into happiness.

"Excuse me?" A guy tapped my shoulder as I lifted up my head.

I wiped up my tears and just looked at him.

"Are you okay?" The dark-skinner guy asked.

I took a big heavy sigh as I told him to sit down and told him that I wasn't okay.

"No, I'm not okay... I'm just having a hard time." I said as I wiped my tear that has just fallen.

"Would you like to talk about it?" He said.

I nodded my head as he smiled and looked into my eyes.

"Have you ever felt like no one understands you?" I asked him as he nodded his head.

"Yes I do a lot! My friends think I'm crazy and a depressed freak but I'm not I'm just sick and tired of dealing with everything!" He said as he just describe how I was feeling.

"I feel the same way, I'm tired of crying myself to sleep and pretending that i am happy when I'm not." I said.

"Can I hug you? I feel the urge to hug you!" He said.

"Yes!" I said as we both got up and hugged each other.

"Thanks, I really needed that!" I said as I smiled.

part two is coming...

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