a book of parent!phan

extra: someone to hold.

a lil extra phan drabble.

2009

Dan lay in his bed, curled up and alone. His heart simply hurt, and with every sob a pang of sadness hit him. He longed for touch. He felt lonely, he felt unloved and forgotten. He missed the warm engulfs of his mum, but he had grown out of that. He felt like crying, thinking of a hug, something he so very badly needed. Instead he lay in an awkwardly empty bed, with no one to love him and no one to hold him. He fell asleep to the hot tears on his cheeks and the tightness of his chest, in the cold air of his bedroom.

2016

Dan lay in Phil's arms, his cheek pressed to his chest and his hands placed on Phil's sides. Phil had his arm wrapped around Dan's frame, and he stroked his back lovingly. Kisses were pressed to his head every once in a while, sweet coaxes murmured into his ear.

Tears rolled down Dan's cheeks, and he buried his face into Phil's shirt every now and then to rid the tears from his rosy cheeks. He was miserable. His heart hurt, and sadness overtook him. Mind buzzing, his lungs felt hot and stuffy.

"You're okay, babyboy," Phil would whisper. "I'm here."

Dan's grip on Phil tightened, and he breathed steadily, trying not to burst out sobbing. He indulged in the warmth of Phil's arms and the feeling of safety in his coaxes.

"I love you," he said, his voice cracking. "So much."

"I love you, bear."

Dan drifted of to sleep with a warm hum of love and secureness around him, a feeling of beautiful comfort. And Dan was so much more than beyond greatful to have Phil. He had someone that loved him, encouraged him, cared for him, but most importantly, he had someone to hold him.