Hate Is A Form Of Affection (UNEDITED)

Chapter 14

I was all alone at school today. If only Nathan hadn't gotten in trouble I wouldn't have been alone,but that doesn't Matter because tonight I go on my first date. I'm so nervous my knees are shaking. What do I wear? What hairstyle should I do? Should I wear makeup? Ugh this is so frustrating. I need music. Maybe it'll help calm my nerves down. I grab my phone, and plug it into my speakers. I press play, and the music surrounds my room. I start to hum to the music, and walk over to my closet. I open it, and look at my clothes. I don't want to look too fancy. I look around and swing my hips to the music.

"What the hell are you doing?" I jump at the voice, and turn around to find Matt laying against the wall staring at me with a Wide smile on his face. I take a strand of hair and put it behind my ear.

"Geesh, couldn't you have knocked?"

"Your door is wide open" He says pointing at the door with a weird face on.

"Whatever, your the least of my problems right now"

"What are you so fidgety about? You look like your about to pass out"

"I'm tying to find the perfect outfit to wear, but I can't seem to find anything decent. This is a disaster" I say falling on my bed.

"What do you need "the perfect outfit" for anyways? What's the speacial occasion?"

"Well, I don't think I should tell you."

"Why not?"

"Because you might flip again, and that's the last thing I want. Trust me."

"Come on just tell me"

I let out a sigh. "It's Nathan. He's taking me out on a date tonight" I say watching his every move, and reaction.

He gets silent, and his eye twitches. He nods his head slowly, and stares at the ground. "Oh"

"Oh?"

"What?"

"Nothing I'm just surprised you didn't flip out on me like last time. I thought you'd say something or even hit something"

He lets out a chuckle. "There's a lot of things I want to say right now"

"Like?"

"Id rather keep my mouth shut. Anyways, have fun on your date or whatever" He gets up, and begins to leave the room. I run in front of the door blocking him from getting out. He rolls his eyes and scoffs.

"Get out of the way"

"No, no your hiding something from me, I know it. I want to know, and I want to know now!" I say.

"Funny, now get out of my way Riley before I push you out of the way myself"

"You won't. You haven't done anything to me in days. That never happens. Your being so nice to me all of a sudden.. Protecting me?.  You've never done that to me. You only ever did that back when we were Best friends, but things have changed obviously.. Something is going on and I refuse to let you leave without getting an explanation" I say.

"Your driving me insane" he says running his hand through his hair.

"Um okay whatever that's supposed to mean"

"Riley, there's nothing to talk about okay? I've just been thinking about my life, and I've decided that I needed to change Thats all"

"That's bull shark! I know there's more to the story!Your not being honest with me, I can feel it. Why can't you just open up to me?"

"You are so difficult. I am being honest!? And Just get out of the way, you need to get ready for your date" he shoves past me in the shoulder making me stumble back. I lock the door, and shake my head against the door. That boy will be the death of me.

I get a text. I walk over to my phone and find that it's a text from Nathan.

Nathan: hey, wear something casual, and warm.

Me:ok... Where are we going for our date?

Nathan: you'll find out soon.

Me: okay I guess I'll just have to wait.

Nathan: haha, I'll see you soon.

I turn my phone off and go back to my closet. Warm, and casual. I pick out a blue baggy sweater, some skinny jeans, and combat boots. I decide to add a little something to the outfit, so I grab one of my scarfs. This is it. It's casual, warm, and comfortable. I wonder where he's taking me. I want to know so bad. I grab my towel and go into the bathroom and take a nice, long, warm shower. When I finish, I go back to my room, and change into my outfit. When I'm done I look in the mirror, and check out how I look. I think I look pretty good. It may not be the best outfit in the world,but who cares. Nathan likes me for who I am, and that's all a person could ever ask for. I take out my hair, and brush it it. I think I'm going to do a French braid. About 10 minutes later, I Finish braiding my hair, and it came out nice. I decide not to add any makeup on. I like to be natural. I put some Chapstick on, and smack my lips together. I look into the mirror and smile to myself. I'm ready.
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Nathan is going to be here in a few minutes, and I am pretty sure this is the day I die, and see Jesus. I pace back and forth across the living room. Matt stands there watching me.

"Could you stop that?" He says in an annoyed tone. He looks me up and down, and smiles to himself.

"What? What! Do I look bad, holy cow, Nathan's gonna think I look ugly, he's gonna think I put no effort into my outfit, this is awful!" I keep pacing back and forth, and Matt walks in front me and lays both of his hands on my shoulders and looks into my eyes.

"Hey calm down okay? And no, it's the opposite actually, you look... Really pretty" Matt blushes and looks away from me to the floor.

"You think so? Your not just playing around with me are you? because I don't think I can handle the pressure" I say.

"I'm not playing around with you. Im being serious. You look beautiful."

I smile and bite my bottom lip. "I think that might be the most sweetest thing you've ever said to me Matt. I guess you really do have a heart"

He chuckles at the last part, and shakes his head. "Like I said I have my moments"

We stare at each other for a few seconds, and then I hear the doorbell ring. He's here.