Hate Is A Form Of Affection (UNEDITED)

Chapter 57

I step into the building searching for Matt. I need to ask him myself. See if it's true. I've been up all night thinking about it, and I need to get this off my chest. I still feel guilty for the way I spoke to Nathan but I just couldn't believe a word he said. I make my way to his first class, and step inside to not see him. I walk out, and head to his locker. I walk over to not see him either which bums me out. I frown. Is he not here today? I tried texting him this morning but he never answered. It seems as if he avoiding me. I walk into my classroom, and sit down waiting for class to begin.

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MATT's POV
I did not go to school today. I wasn't feeling well mentally and physically. My body was sore from yesterday's football practice, and I'm just scared to face Riley. I know Nathan most likely probably already told her my secret. She keeps calling me but I'm not answering. I'm such a coward. I know I need to tell her, it would be the right thing to do but I'm so terrified of what the outcome may be. Today are the auditions and I know she wants me there but I just can't.. I'm so sorry Riley.

RILEYS POV
School was finally over and I was just desperately wanting to go home,and see Matt because I miss him and I need to have a little chat with him. Nathan and I haven't spoken all day. I saw him around but we didn't say a word to each other. I know he wanted too though because he kept trying to approach me but me being a wuss I ignored him.

I pick up my phone dialing Matt. I hear the phone ringing which means his phone is on. "Sorry this is Matt, I can't reach the phone right now but-" I hang up annoyed. I grab my bag, and rest it on my shoulder. I don't know if I want to audition anymore. He's not even here for support. I walk out the building only to hear my name being yelled. I continue walking to the door but I feel my arm be gripped. I turned around to come face to face with Nathan.

"Stop avoiding me." He says in a calm soft voice which makes me relax.

"Let go." I Say trying to get out of his grip but he only tightens it.

"Can we just talk? I know you don't believe me but I'm being truthful. I heard what I heard. I wouldn't lie to you."

"I don't believe y-you." I stutter. "I don't want to talk I just want to find Matt."

"You can ask him but he's only going to lie to you. Why don't you ask Chelsea?"

"Because if I asked her then she would lie too. You can't trust anyone anymore these days."

"Well trust me. I'm your friend. Maybe your only friend, and I don't want to lose you. I like being with you, and... I just please.." he begs me. I look away from his eyes feeling vulnerable.

"I-I don't know." I Say shaking my head.

"Okay fine.. don't believe me but can we just be good? Please."

"Okay, but until I find out myself I don't want to hear about the topic anymore Okay? respect that please."

"Fine. But only because I don't want you to not talk to me again because it honestly kind of sucked."

I smile and blush at the thought. "Okay."

"So, auditions? Did you forget?" He Asks me.

"No I remembered it's just.. Matt isn't here and well I.. I don't think I can go on without him." My voice fading because I realize we're talking about Matt too much.