Hate Is A Form Of Affection (UNEDITED)

Chapter 58

RILEYS POV
I knock on the door desperate to see Matt. I've missed him like hell today, and I really need to talk to him. I hear footsteps come towards the door, and it swings open to see Matt's mom. She smiles at me, and I send her a hug.

"Hi." I say Smiling. I pull away, and she lets me inside.

"I hope I'm not bothering you." I Say.

"No not at all, I'm just cleaning. I have been doing it all day I'm exhausted, and this is a big house." I nod looking around because it really is a big house.

"Is Matt around here? He wasn't at school today. I've been worried."

"He wasn't feeling well. He's in the kitchen making Mac and cheese. The only thing he's good at cooking." I giggle heading to the kitchen a bit scared to see him. Scared because I'm scared of what will happen when I ask him about Chelsea and Him, and asking him why he's been avoiding me lately.

I walk into the kitchen, and freeze when I see Matt, and Chelsea together... Kissing. I feel myself go numb. I watch as they kiss, and I feel the tears begin to form but I try my best to push them away.

"Matt." I manage to say before breaking into years. He pulls away from Chelsea letting her go. His eyes land on me fear written all over his face.

"R-Riley." I Say Nothing, and just turn around and make my way out of the house silently sobbing to myself as I walk home.

"Wait! Wait! Riley! Stop!" I feel him grab my arm, but I pull away from him walking away wiping my tears but it's no use because more tears just continue slipping out.

"Riley please, let me explain."

"No. I don't want to hear your excuses or your lies. I don't e-even want to l-look at you." I sob. I should have known this would happen.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen, I don't want anyone else but you. I love you! I love you with everything that I have, believe me baby. I'm sorry she came onto me!"

"But you let her!" I shout. "You let her kiss you, you wanted to kiss her. I should have Known this would happen. I'm-I'm such an idiot for possibly ever thinking that I could change you. But you are the same person you were before and you are never going to change." He states at me in shock the tears forming in his eyes.

"You have changed me! I'm not the same As I was before! I'm a better person now because of you! And if I lose you I won't know who I am. Please."

"I gave you all of me Matt! I gave you my heart! My mind! My soul! My body. And you broke me. I can't believe this."

"I know you did.. I don't know what to say other that I'm sorry, and that I love you and I will regret my mistake for the rest of my life. Please forgive me" He begs the tears falling out of his eyes.

"All this time.. you've been going behind my back and I trusted you. What else have you been hiding from me huh! What else? Because I don't even know who you are anymore."

"When.. when we broke up. Chelsea and I kissed but I pushed her away and told her to back off and to not do it again."

"Well Clearly She didn't listen. Thanks for being honest with me." I sarcastically say.

"I'm sorry. I was afraid okay! I was afraid of this! This was what I have been trying to avoid, this moment right here."

"I love you Matt.. I love you so much but I.. I can't do this anymore." I sob as he steps forward.

"W-what? Are you breaking up with me?"

"It's What has to happen. I can't be with someone who isn't loyal, who doesn't want to be with me. I can't be with someone who lies to me, and doesn't communicate well with me. I can't be in a toxic relationship. I want to be happy, but I can't be happy with you knowing what you've done.. just tell me. How many times have you guys kissed during our relationship, and don't lie because I'll know and I can't handle anymore lies from you or anyone else, so just please." I sob out trying to pull myself together but it's just so hard because I care so much for him.

"Twice." He says looking anywhere else but me and the tears slip out as I nod my head.

"I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you." I take my promise ring off my finger as he watches me, and I walk over to him and put the ring into the palm of his hand Closing it shut looking up into his eyes. "I hope your happy, and I hope everything goes well for you, but this is the end for us." Sadness crosses his face but then anger comes out.

I turn around walking away from him letting the tears escape because I'm so hurt.

"So what? You're gonna go be with Nathan now aren't you?"

"Oh please-"

"No! Don't act like your the victim here! Admit you have feelings for him. Were being honest aren't we, so how about you be honest."

"Matt leave me alone."

"You aren't denying it..." He says, and I frown.

"No Matt! I need time to heal! And at least Nathan was a man and had the balls to do what you never what have done! He was honest, and I pushed him away thinking he was lying this whole time because I trusted you but I was wrong about you, about us, about everything. Matt I love you but we weren't meant to be I'm sorry but we're done."

"I can't imagine my life without you!" He shouts making me sob once again. I turn around to see Chelsea storm out of the house. I glance away from her back to Matt.

"Maybe you should be with her.. if she really makes you happy. Goodbye Matt." I turn around and walk away heading home feeling like the world is crumbling all around me.
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I make my way into the hallway not feeling in the mood to be here. My eyes are red, and puffy from all the crying I've been doing all night and there swollen. Matt kept trying to talk to me all night long yesterday but I wouldn't let him. My mom comforted me, and she told me she was going to beat his butt for me which made me happy because I'd like to see him get set straight. I walk over to Nathan's locker and tap on his shoulder. I smile at him, and he smiles down at me.

"Hey." He says but frowns once he sees my eyes. "What happened?"

"You were right... I'm sorry." I Say. He instantly hugs me, and kisses the top of my head making me feel better.

"He's an ass. How are you dealing with it all? Are you okay? What happened?"

"I caught him kissing Chelsea. I ended it with him, I'm a mess but I'm trying to hold it together and move on but it's just so hard because I loved him so much and I still so but a part of me doesn't want too." I admit.

"It's going to get better. I'm here for you. Every step of the way." He tells me. I hug him once again and kiss his cheek. He smiles and we walk to class together. Nathan's my best friend, and I'm grateful to have him in my life.

MATT's POV
I'm devastated. I can't stop thinking about her. It's really over this time and there's nothing I can do. The damage is done.

I walk to class, and stop when I see Nathan and Riley Hugging. She smiles up at him as they walk together his arm wrapped around her. I clench my jaw, but just walk to my class ignoring it but I can't. I walk into math class seeing Riley and Nathan next to each other talking. I sit in the front with one of my close friends. This is weird, and I feel uncomfortable. It's only been a day and I miss her already. I don't know how we're gonna do this.