Hate Is A Form Of Affection (UNEDITED)

Chapter 35

RILEYS POV

I got no sleep last night. I'm laying in bed staring at my ceiling wondering where the hell I went wrong. I was supposed to be in school today, but I Just couldn't be over there. I can't breathe, it's like my hearts been ripped out of my chest. After my Mom And I Came Home from the restaurant, she told me to stay here, and went over to Claire's to go grab her luggage out of the trunk and speak to her about everything that's happened. We took a cab. I hear a knock on the door, and it opens.

"I made Dinner." She tells me.

"Not hungry." I say rolling to my side not looking at her.
I hear her sigh.

"Come On Please I made your favorite." She tells me. "I just want to talk." She says.

"Leave Me Alone." I say. Silence fills the air, and I soon hear the close of a door. I feel a tear drop escape my eyes, and I don't even care that I look like a mess right now. I can't stop thinking about him. I just want him to hold me, and for him to tell me how much he loves me, just one more time. I keep thinking about that Day.. the Night Where He first kissed me under the stars. It was my first kiss, and he made it Unforgettable. I smile at the thought, but then start crying because I just want to kiss him. I miss him so much it hurts.

MATTS POV
I sit In My living room Just staring at the floor. I feel like crap. I can't get her out of my head. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even think straight. Chelseas here, and She Keeps staring at me. My mom sits next to me and Hands me a glass of water.

"No." I say not even looking at her. She sets it down and Looks at Chelsea.

"So, Where are you parents?" She asks her.

"They Had other plans." She says. My mom smiles at her.

"So, do you Plan On Keeping the Child?" She asks her.

"Yes, and Matt Is going to help Me Raise him or she." Chelsea says.

"Okay. Well, If You need anything, I'm Here." My mom says. I hate how she's just sitting there pretending like she's actually Concerned about her. How pathetic.

I stand up and Walk out of the house. I hear My Mom Yell out My Name, and I just Start Walking. I don't know where I'm going, I just don't want to be around either of them right now. I walk around for hours and Just think about Riley. I can't stop thinking about that Night when I made Love to her. It was so passionate. Usually when I take girls to the bedroom I fuck them, there's never any Meaning to it, I just do it for the sake of wanting to feel Good, but when I did it with Riley, it was different. It actually meant something to me, it was passionate and Romantic, and I Loved her touch. She was the best I ever had. I just want to be able to feel her again. To tell her I Love her. It's killing me.

After a few hours of walking around I show up back Home, and I see My Mom sitting on the couch. I don't see Chelsea anywhere so I'm guessing she left.

"Where did you go? I've been worried sick? I was about to call the police." She says.

"Whatever." I say heading upstairs.

"Matt. Stop." I stop walking.

"What?" I ask her With an attitude.

"You've got to stop acting like this. It's childish and immature."

"Mom you have no idea How I feel right now. I have nothing left. She was all I had, and now she's gone, and there's nothing I Can do about it."

"Well, you shouldn't have Done what you did to her." My mom says.

"Don't you think I Know that! I already apologized for what I did, she forgave me, why can't you? Can't you all just give me a break." I say. My mom stays silent, and I just head upstairs, I slam the door shut, and sit on the ground. I take out my phone and hit the hole button and her Face Pops Up on the screen. Her beautiful Smile could light up a thousand cities. I start to cry again, but I stop right away not wanting to cry Anymore. I will get her back. I have too, cause if I don't I don't know what I'll do.