Hate Is A Form Of Affection (UNEDITED)

Chapter 55

Matt's POV

I have to tell her.. I need to be honest with her. I have all this guilt building up inside of me. I can't believe I did this to her. I went behind her back, and betrayed her. The girl I love. I'm an idiot.

I see her walk into the building, and her eyes land on me a smile forming on her face. She is the most prettiest girl on this planet, and she's mine... all mine. I force back a smile,and make my way towards her. She kisses my cheek, and opens her locker.

"Hi. I missed you. I feel like I haven't seen you in forever." She says grabbing her notebook, and textbook.

"Y-Yeah, It has felt like that. I've missed you too." I Say staring at her. I know I need to tell her about what I did. But I'm so scared. Scared that I'll lose her, that she will slip out of my fingers because I don't want too. She's changed me, and made me a better person, but the truth is I'm still the same guy I was before. The idiot who broke girls hearts.

"So, are you working today? I was thinking maybe we could hang out today. Maybe go watch a movie." She suggests. She seems really happy, and I'm glad she is. I know she's been dealing with the talk that has been going on around the school, but I think she's just moved on from that which is good. I don't want to ruin her happy mood.

"No. I have off today. We can go to the movies if you want." I Say trying to act normal. She smiles, and the speakers go on.

"Good morning students. We will be having a talent show this Friday. Auditions are tomorrow after school 4-6. There is a signup sheet on the billboard in the hall. Signup, and be ready for your auditions. Good luck! Have a good day." I look at Riley who has a shy smile on her face.

"What?"

"Well, I don't know. Do you think I should audition?" She Asks me. I smile because she happens to be a talented singer.

"Hell yeah. Go for it, you have an amazing voice. You should share your voice and your music with the world." I Say grabbing her hand.

"Really? You really think that? I don't know I just.. just thinking about it makes me nervous." She starts turning red, and I get butterflies in my stomach because she makes me feel so good inside.

"Yes. I do."

"Thank you for supporting me. Okay I'll do it, but you'll be there for auditions right?"

"Of course baby. I need to cheer you on." I chuckle. She giggles, and stands on her tippy toes and kisses me on the lips. I never get tired of kissing her. Every-time I kiss her it feels as if it's the first time.

"Great." The bell rings letting us know we have to get to class. "I have to go, but I'll see you at Lunch?" I nod, and  she kisses my cheek before walking off. I turn around watching her as she walks away. I want to tell her but I can't risk it. I'm just going to keep it to myself.

CHELSEAS POV

I can't stop thinking about what happened between Matt, and I last night. I knew he still had feelings for me. And when we kissed.. it was pure magic. I love him so much. More then I ever have before. My love for him these past few months have only grown stronger, and I can't resist this urge. I want to be with him. I want him to call me his again like before. Him and Riley are a terrible couple. They are two completely different people, and she is nothing compared to me. And now.. Matt and I are having this baby together and I couldn't be any more happier. Yes, this wasn't supposed to happen but it did and in a way I'm glad this did happen because it's bringing Matt and I so much closer. I walk out of the bathroom only to see him standing with Riley in front of the lockers. I stay hidden, and listen to their conversation.

"Great... I have to go but I'll see you at lunch?" She Asks Smiling. She doesn't deserve him. She kisses his cheek before walking off. And Matt watches. I inhale and walk over to him. He looks at me and rolls his eyes walking away.

"Don't walk away from me!"

He turns around and faces me looking uninterested. "What the fuck do you want Chelsea?I'm going to be late too class, and honestly I don't feel like speaking to you right now." He turns around, and I grab his arm stopping him from walking away. He is clearly upset with me but he shouldn't be.

"Say you were at the bathroom. Are we really going to avoid what happened last night? You kissing me?"

"That was a mistake. I wasn't thinking clearly okay?! And don't you fucking dare tell Riley." He says raising his voice a bit.

"It was not a mistake. I kissed you first, and then you kissed me.. and you kissed me as if you've been wanting to do it for the longest time. Like you needed too. So don't you dare hide from the truth. And I don't need too. She's going to find out somehow, someday."

"No she won't! If she finds out about what we did then I will lose her and I can't accept that which is why we are pushing it aside and pretending like it never happened. Do you understand?" He Asks me staring deep into my eyes.

"Well I'm sorry Matt but I don't want to pretend like it never happened. I want to remember that kiss because it meant something and you k know it." He clenched his jaw, and shakes his head storming away.

"Matt!" I yell. "You love me!" I shout. He walks off, and I sigh wanting to chase after him. He will be mine I don't care. He and I our meant to be and soon enough he's going to need to realize.

NATHAN'S POV

As I'm walking to class I hear loud yelling coming from the south hallway. I quickly take a sip of water from the fountain and follow the noise. As I'm walking I see Matt, and Chelsea arguing. I wonder what that's about. I turn around pushing it aside because there probably just arguing about personal issues with the baby or something.

"No she won't! If she finds out about what we did then I will lose her and I can't accept that which is why we are pushing it aside and pretending like it never happened. Do you understand?" I hear him say. I stop in my tracks curious as to what there taking about. What die Chelsea and Matt do?.. if he hurts Riley I will personally kill him. I know Chelsea and him are already having a baby together and they will spend time together, but if they did something that could possibly hurt Riley then there's going to be a big problem.

"Well I'm sorry Matt but I don't want to pretend like it never happened. I want to remember that kiss because it meant something and you know it." My hands turn into fists. Kiss?! How could he fucking do that to her? He doesn't truly love her if he had the audacity to go behind her back and kiss another girl who wasn't his girlfriend. What a fucking joke. I knew he wasn't the right guy for her. Riley deserves so much better. Someone like me.. I would treat her right. I would treat like she's the only girl in the world, I would be loyal, and I would love her and take care of her.. I'm right for her. Matt isn't. I need to tell her. I have too. If he isn't going to tell her someone has too, and sadly it's going to have to be me. It's going to crush Riley but I would rather tell her then hide it behind her back because if I didn't and she found out from someone else, or even from them I know it would hurt her even more. I care about her too much to hide this from her, but first.. I'm going to have a little talk with Matt and set him straight. So he can get what he fucking deserves.