Hate Is A Form Of Affection (UNEDITED)

Chapter 18

I sit On my bed, and watch Netlfix on my phone. Matt hasn't come up here, and bothered me ,which I am very grateful for. As I watch the show, I feel myself needing the urge to pee. Really Riley? Ugh I was so comfortable too, but what if I see Matt? Let me not think like that. I get up, and open the door slowly, I look to the sides. The coast is clear. No Matt. Off to a great start. I tip toe over to the Bathroom, and I close the door. I let out a sigh of relief. I turn around and See Matt standing there with wide eyes, with a towel hanging around his hips.

"Oh, oh my gosh" I say covering my eyes, and trying to find the door handle.

"Wait wait." Matt walks over to me, and pulls me away from the door.

"What are you doing? I want to get out, I don't want to see all of.. That." I say gesturing to his body.

"Look, I'll let you get out, can we just talk first please?"

"Ugh fine whatever, just because I know you'll never let this go until we do,but please put on a shirt.. And some underwear.. And some pants." I say looking away.

"Fine." I hear shuffling around me, and about a minute Later I hear him say he's finished.

I turn around, and look at him. "God, Matt why do we need to talk in here."

"I don't really know to be honest." He says looking to the sides.

"Okay, I will talk with you, but can we Please do it somewhere else?" I ask him feeling uncomfortable.

"Okay." He opens the bathroom door, and he gets out. I stay inside the Bathroom, and close the door.

He opens the door. "What are you doing?"

"I need to pee, that's what I came here to do in the first Place." I say.

"Right." He closes the door, and I do my Business. I wash my hands when I'm finished, and exit the Bathroom. I go downstairs, and See Matt waiting by the door wearing his jacket.

"Where are you going?" I ask him raising an eyebrow at him.

"Not me, us. I thought we should go talk somewhere other then here. Plus it'd be nice to get some Fresh air." He says.

"Alright." I grab my sweater and scarf. "I have to go get my shoes." I go Upstairs and grab shoes. I go downstairs, and walk over to the door.
"I'm ready." He smiles at me, and we leave the house. I wonder where we're going.
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We arrive at a park, and I see that it's pretty empty. There's not a lot of people here, just a mother, and her daughter playing on the swing sets, and a couple walking their dog.

"I haven't been here in a while." I say looking around.

"Yeah me too. It's a nice place. Quiet, and Peaceful."

I nod my head, and we sit down On a bench.

We sit in silence, and then I hear Matt sigh. "We need to talk about this."

"I know we do." I say quietly playing around with my fingers.

" I know that This all must be very confusing for you, but it's also very confusing for me too. I know you think I've lost My mind because I have feelings for you, especially after everything that I have done to you these past few years, and I probably am, but I can't lie to you and tell you that, I don't have feelings for you. Riley, that kiss, it was Right I'm telling you. When our lips touched, it felt as if time stopped, like we were the only two people on earth. It was amazing, and I just.. I want to do it again." He tells me staring at me. I look up at him, and bite my lip nervously.

"I- I don't know what to say Matt, This is not something that I'm used too, ok This has never happened too me before. I think your just confused, I mean we've barely Hung out, maybe your mind is playing tricks with you. There's no way, that someone like you, could like someone like me." I say looking into his eyes.