Hate Is A Form Of Affection (UNEDITED)

Chapter 29

I Pull Away From Matt, and Stare at the floor Not Knowing What To Say. He Loves me? Do I love Him Back. I'm not ready for this.

"Matt." I say Looking up at him. He stares down at me, with this Panicked look in his eyes. I look into them for a while, and I feel Something Deep Inside of me. Matt Has Been the One To Get Me through All the crap I've been going through, he's been so good to me, and He Treats Me Like I'm the Only girl in the world. He May Have Hurt me Before In the Past, but I care about now. He loves me for me, and he sacrifices everything for me, and I love him. I really do Love him.

"Please Say something Because If you Don't I Think I'm going to Have a Panic attack."

"Matt-"

"Oh god, I shouldn't have said anything, I'm such an idiot." He says pacing back and forth across the room. I walk over to him and grab his arm.

"Matt-"

"Why Can't I ever Keep My Mouth Shut. You wouldn't love me, you couldn't, But I Love you, so much, I've never felt this way before, and I just completely humiliated myself by pouring out my Love for you and-" I Lean In And Kiss Him softly On the Lips so he would stop Babbling. I pull away, and Smile at him.

"I love you too." I say.

Matt Looks down at me. "What did you just Say?"

"I love you too." I Rest My Hand On the Back Of His neck, as my fingers play with his hair. I look into his eyes and smile. His hand rests on my waist bringing me in closer to him.

"Are you fucking with me?" He asks me. I giggle, and Shake My Head.

"No, I really do Love You Matt. Your the best Boyfriend I've Only ever Had." That Makes Him Laugh. "And You make me Laugh, you make me happy, and You Make me feel special. You are the best thing to ever happen to me, and I Love you." I tell him meaning every word. He Looks down at me, and the biggest Smile forms On his Face. I smile back, and He Lifts me up and Spins me around like they do in the movies. I laugh, and He puts me down on the floor, and Kisses me Like Never Before.

"Are you Sure you Really Love me?" He asks me against my Lips. I rest My Forehead On His, and nod.

"Yes... let's go upstairs." I tell him. He pulls away, and Looks at me, I nod, and he Picks Me Up bridal Style and Leads me Upstairs To my bedroom. Matt Closes the door, and He gently Lays Me down On My Bed. He Takes off his shoes, and he Stands Over me, he Moves a strand
Of hair away from My Face, and Places it behind My ear. My heart is Beating So Fast right now, I'm pretty sure he could hear it. He Kisses me Softly and Passionately On the Lips, and I kiss Him Back as I run My Fingers through his hair. The kiss deepens, and Matt Takes His Hand and Slowly Slips it under my shirt. His thumb Rubs my Stomach Softly, and My Breathing Suddenly Pickens Up. I sit Up a little Not Breaking the kiss, I wrap my arms around him, and his Hand Goes to My Back, slowly moving up. He Unzips My Dress, and I Take off the straps. I pull away needing to Breathe, and Matt Stares down at me. He grabs my waist, and he slowly Starts to Kiss my shoulders, and My Neck Making Me Close My eyes In Pleasure. I lay back Down on the bed, and he continues Kissing me. It feels really good. He Slips My Dress off revealing My Black Lacy Push Up Bra, and Black underwear. I feel so exposed. He drops it on the floor, and I pull Away And Look Up Into His Eyes.

"Are you sure you Wanna do this?" He asks me.

"I want too. I'm ready." I tell Him. He Kisses me Once Again, but soon Pulls Away. I lift his shirt up, and Bring it over his neck. I see His Eight Pack, and I Gently rub my Hand Up And Down His Chest feeling him. He's extremely built. He has the body of a Greek God. He Closes His Eyes, and I bring my hand down Lower Going to His Pants. I unzip Them, and He swallows hard. I think he's just as nervous as I Am. Before I slip them down, he tells me that he has a condom in his pocket. I grab It, and set it on the counter next to me. I slip his pants down along with His Boxers, and he kicks the Rest off and Puts it on the floor. I Look down at Him, and He's so Big. I bite My Lip Wanting to Feel his touch, wanting to feel him inside of me. I'm still Not Fully Naked, but I think that won't be a problem. He Reaches his Hand and Places it on my back, and unclips My Bra. He takes it off, and He Looks Down at my chest.

"Your so beautiful. Your perfect." He Says Making Me Blush. He Kisses My chest, making Me Moan, he Kisses My stomach, sucking and Licking On My Skin Making Me arch My Back. I bite my lip, and a small Moan escapes My Lips. He makes it to My Lower Area, and He Takes off my panties Slowly. I close my eyes, getting a little nervous. He kisses my Thighs and Licks them Making me Breathe hard. I moan, as he goes Higher. He Opens My Legs, and Dives right In. A gasp Escapes My Lips, and I can't Help But too Grip the Sheets. He goes Slow, but picks up the Pace. I start Moaning Like Crazy, and I run my fingers through his hair as I Look down at him. I throw my head Back, and Arch My Back, as he goes Faster.

"I'm- I'm so close." I moan. Before I Could Release, he pulls Away. He Looks At me and Smiles. I smile back. He grabs the Condom, and rips it open, and Slips It On. He kisses my forehead, and positions himself In Front of me.

"Please, go Slow." I say. Matt Nods His head. He Moves in slow, and I feel this Hard Terrible Pain. I gasp, and A Tear slips out of my eye, but Matt Wipes it Away.

"Are you Okay?" He asks. I nod. He thrusts In Slow and Gentle, and the Pain I felt a minute ago, now feels good. I want More. I'm not a virgin Anymore. My innocence Is Gone, and I'm loving it.

"Faster. Please." I moan. He Speeds Up A little More, and Our Bodies are Quickly Moving up and Down With Each other. He Groans, and Kisses me On the Lips as he goes faster. A moan escapes his Lips, and I Can See the sweat Dripping down his Face. He hits me harder then Before, and I Can't Help But too Moan.

"Matt." I moan, as I throw my hands on his back, and Claw My Nails into His Skin. I wrap my leg Around his Waist, and He Hits me Harder and Harder.

"I love The Sound of Your Moans. I love it when you Moan My Name." He Whispers in my ear, as he continues thrusting. I decide to switch things up a bit, and I flip Us Over, so I'm the One On too of Him Now. He smiles at the sudden Movement and his Hands rest on both side of my waists. I ride him, going Fast, and I can't help but too love the Moans that escape out of his mouth. I moan his Name, and as I ride him, He Grabs My Breasts, and slowly squeezed them, making me Throw my head Back. I go faster, and slowly grind on to him, he flips us over again and Once Again Takes his turn Hitting me. He Goes Hard, and I Smile.

"I love you." He groans, as he hits me. I kiss him on the lips, and moan against him.

"I love you more." I say. We keep going, and I'm so close to my climax.

"I'm gonna-"

"Shh, I Know." He says. He keeps hitting me, and I Finally release. I Orgasm, and He Releases too. We both breathe Heavily, and I can feel the heat That's in this Room. He pulls Out slowly, and takes off the condom and throws it in the trash. He Breathes hard, and He Puts his head On My chest, and I slowly Rub my fingers through his hair as he Relaxes on me. I close my eyes and kiss the top of his head. I did it. I don't regret it. It was amazing. He Takes his head off my chest, and Lays Down beside me. We hide under the covers, and I rest My head on top of his chest, as he wraps his arm around me.

"That was... perfect." I say looking up at him. He looks down at me, and smiles.

"It was. I'm glad you enjoyed it." He says. He looks up at the ceiling, and I slowly kiss his chest, making him close his eyes.

"I love you." I tell him again. I just need him to know. I really do love him. I mean, I even lost my virginity to Him, just comes to show how much I really care about him. He didn't judge me, he didn't Hurt me, and I Love Him.

"Not as much as I love you." He says, I smile, and close my eyes, knowing he meant every word he said, and I fall into a deep Sleep...