I got attached to you.
Even though I didn't know how to,
it was like my heart remembered a lesson
from before I learned it
and decided that it was worth it.
I think it remembered a song,
some lyrics from some long gone memory
that said maybe instead of leaving diamonds
at the door,
you would adorn my neck with pearls,
precious and fought for.
Perhaps it was in the way
that I never saw it coming,
never anticipated that
you would want to peel my masks off,
because I let you.
No one ever cared about
what color my skin was beneath the makeup
or or what color my eyes were
under the moonlight,
They did not see me as a necessity
but a mere commodity,
a pretty face that supposed to look happy, laughing lips that were supposed to
stay smiling.
How did you do it?
You didn't see any of that,
and what's more is you accepted the fact
that you had see the truth.
It was why I was so rude to you at first.
Experience taught me to
expect the worst of people
and I knew that one wrong move
and I could end up being the
shattered window.
But you stayed,
you made me see that I was more
than what others could see,
you opened my rib cage and found my battered heart somehow still beating
after life's brutal beatings.
You took it out of me
and held it so preciously,
as if you found a treasure
that no one else could see.
I stopped breathing,
stopping seeing you as a threat after you caressed my heart and told me
that my life wasn't over yet,
told me how these scars
were not here to forget,
but to celebrate how strong I had become.
You placed my heart back in my chest
and I found that I could breathe again, and these breaths were so different from before.
They were filled with so much more
than the meager air I had been breathing.
For the first time in a long time
I began to breathe with purpose.
In the end it wasn't your unending patience that won me over,
It wasn't the unfailing perseverance
or the total disregard for any adherence
to my "rules".
You won me by the way you see,
How you saw the world,
and then how you saw me.
SK
