God damn it I hate it. I hate that I can't look at anything the same way. I can't think about anything without it reminding me of you somehow. And I hate it. Because thinking about you brings me so much pain. And I just want to forget. I want to forget everything. All those beautiful moments that made me smile so much now only hurt me. I want to forget it all. Because as much as I hate to admit it, I love you and it hurts so damn much. If I could forget all of this ever happened, I wouldn't care so much. I wouldn't be in so much pain.
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Thoughts and Feelings
Non-FictionTRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION, SUICIDE, ANXIETY, ETC. Welcome to my brain on my darkest days and nights. I'm warning you, it's not pretty, so continue at your own risk. This involves questions I find myself asking on a daily basis, rants...
