I know being betrayed by the two people closest to you on the same day must have been miserable, but why is it you forgave her but you won't forgive me? I get she's your girlfriend, but she had been lying to you for months, and yet you don't even take a break. I tell you the truth and I'm completely cut off. I've been apologizing for months now. I lost three hundred dollars of my own money because of that cancellation, money I can't afford to spare. I understand that you're mad, I just don't understand why it was so easy for you to forgive her, while I'm left out in the cold. I don't think you understand what that did to me. I didn't leave my bed for days. I cried myself to sleep for weeks. I still carry the guilt around with me every single day. I don't feel guilty about telling the truth, I feel guilty that I hurt you. I bet she doesn't though.
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No FicciónTRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION, SUICIDE, ANXIETY, ETC. Welcome to my brain on my darkest days and nights. I'm warning you, it's not pretty, so continue at your own risk. This involves questions I find myself asking on a daily basis, rants...
