It's almost 2 am and I'm uncontrollably crying. I don't even know why. Maybe it's depression flaring up. I did nothing all day today, and now I'm up in the middle of the night crying my eyes out. I considered hurting myself, but I've managed not to. I have to write. I have to channel this into something I understand. I don't know what I'm feeling or why I'm feeling like this. I don't feel sad or tired or overwhelmed or frustrated. I just feel hollow. I can't think of a single happy moment even though I know I've experienced them. All I can see is the moments I've felt hurt or sad or scared. Why is this happening? Why won't it stop? Please... Make it stop.
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No FicciónTRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION, SUICIDE, ANXIETY, ETC. Welcome to my brain on my darkest days and nights. I'm warning you, it's not pretty, so continue at your own risk. This involves questions I find myself asking on a daily basis, rants...