I'm a perfectionist, and it's ruining my life.
So I went to therapy today because of my mental breakdown over work a few days ago. Basically, the reason I was so stressed and anxious about work (and literally everything in my life) is because I'm a perfectionist with a fear of failure. I try to be perfect in every aspect in my life. I try to have perfect grades, be the perfect employee, be the perfect friend, everything. And if I'm anything less than perfect I feel like a failure, which is so much unnecessary stress. Because I'm human. I make mistakes. I'm doing my best and that's all that matters. I have to accept that my best is enough. Working myself up will only set me up for more mistakes (like crashing my car oops).
Anyway, I'm working on that.
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SaggisticaTRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF DEPRESSION, SUICIDE, ANXIETY, ETC. Welcome to my brain on my darkest days and nights. I'm warning you, it's not pretty, so continue at your own risk. This involves questions I find myself asking on a daily basis, rants...