I Used To Wonder | BOOK 2 | COMPLETED

|| Chapter 6 ~ Broke Down? ||

The next day is when i broke down. Something came over me and I felt broken...

I woke up with my alarm playing in my ear. I leant over and whacked it so it stopped annoying me. My warm feet hit the cold wooden floor beneath me.

The Christmasy mood hadnt come to me since December started. I collapsed onto the sofa in the living room. My heart was pounding and for some strange reason i had butterflies fluttering around in my stomach.

My head dropped into my hands as i remebered everything was definatley not a dream. Warm tears dripped down my face one by one.

Obviously the cry yesterday was not enough.

I heard a shuffle in Isaacs room and a minute later he was out of his room wearing long christmas bottoms and a white vest.

His arm stretched around me, hugging me slightly.

"Whats wrong Sweet Cheeks?" He asked, conserned about what had gone off.

Even though he wasnt smilinb his lip ring still had a glow to it.

"Oh... Nothing I am okay!" I try and smile and wipe the tears away. I began to stand up as he dragged me back down.

"Leora?..." He seemed serious now.

"Isaac, you won't understand."

"I will try my best, for you," He urged me to speak.

"My whole life is like i am living a lie. Riley is now one of my problems to deal with and I just cant handle Olivia and a drama play. Its too much! I even tell people 'I am fine,' or 'I can do it,' but i just am not fine nor can i do it all."

I paused clearing my cheeks again.

"My mind is muddled with different emotions and thoughts. My Dad doesnt even know, Isaac!"

"I know, I know..." he tried to comfort me.

Adenaline rushed straight through my body.

When will I tell my dad?

How will I tell my dad?

How will he take it?

But, Will I ever tell my dad?

I wrapped myself in a ball and dipped my head in the small space between my knees.

If there was to be any Christmas Festivity left inside of me, it had definatley been burnt into ashes.

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The rest of the day got better and better. Ivy and Levi came round helped decorate a bit more for Christmas in our dorm.

I hadnt got a Christmas Calender this year but i guess i was okay with it.

We spent the whole day trying to figure out excuses to skip the last day of collage. It was tomorrow and who the hell would want to go to school on the last day?

Me and Isaac where convising enough so that Ivy and Levi could stay over for the night.

"Ivy," I said after we had burst out laughing about something weird.

I told Ivy and she nearly squized all of my vital organs out of my. Big Bear Hug!

Once we where all settled, Ivy was on one sofa and I was on the other and Isaac was next to my sofa on the floor and the same with Levi but next to Ivy, We started to drift off one by one. I was last to go off with all my head in the clouds.

Laying there staring back at the ceiling with my hands on my chest. My position was like Arora when she slept for a thousand but there was no rose, no dress, no crown and no sleep.

Helloooo!!!

Okay idea brain storm!!
Might write another book but that will only be about 2 sentences long each chaper.
It might just spread positivity not sure.
Leave your ideas down below if yes and no!

Thank you for reading!!!
I love you!!!
Read more for what happens next!!
This was kind of a filler and what Leora was feeling.
BYEEE!!!

Merry Christmas!