It's early in the morning when I hear footsteps from downstairs. Sleepy I look at the alarm clock on my nightstand. 04:16 am. Tiredly I rub my eyes and get out of the king seized bed. Quickly I grab a black shirt of the ground which is long enough to cover my underwear and slowly open the door. Carefully I peer out the door frame seeing light from the living room. Quietly I walk to the golden railing of the stairs and look down onto the lighted corridor. Suddenly I listen someone opening the fridge. Instantly I know who's here. Angrily I stamp down the staircase and enter the kitchen. There I catch sight of a drunk Jason holding a glass in one hand and in the other a cold Bourbon.
»Hey, baby! Com'here I missed you sooooo much«, he slurs.
The moment he looked at me I notice his red loose eyes. Sternly I place my arms in front of my chest.
»You know what time it is, right baby?«, I underline the word baby.
Thereupon Jason looks around searching for a clock.
»I don't know«
»Yes, Jason and that's the point!«, I raise my voice a bit.
»Ow, that's no reason to shout like that«, he replies while holding his hands on the ears.
»Oh, am I talking too loud? I'm sorry, baby«, I say.
Jason nods innocently and fills his glas with the alcohol he's holding. At once I throw my hand on the kitchen table.
»But the loud music in the club is nothing for you. There you could stay forever«, I wonder.
»No«, he answers shaking his head rapidly.
»Then why aren't you home anymore?«, I speak under my breath,»At night you always bring me to bed and tell me you won't leave me this time, you'll stay so I can see your beautiful face in the morning laying beside me. But then you leave. Again.«
Jason stares at me the whole time. He just examines me. Slowly he considers my whole body not showing any expression on his face. As he looks in my eyes again I step closer to him.
»I can't do this any longer, Jason«, I whisper seeing deeply in his hazel eyes.
He gently looks away.
»I-I just don't know how to talk to you anymore«, Jason mumbles.
»What do you mean?«
»Don't you see? I can't even ask you if you're okay. Now you're telling me how bad it fucks you up while I'm just asking myself how I never noticed that«, he hisses looking desperately in my eyes.
Not able to answer him I only stare at his reflection. He's so beautiful yet so hurt. It's killing me to see him like that but he can't do this to me. Not anymore.
»That's your problem, Jason! I'm hear, okay? I was always here to talk to you. But now it's your fault you never noticed bc your messed up ass can't hold his shit together«, I begin to shout whilebthe anger is boiling in my body.
»You don't think I fucking know that?! I know that I never was by your side ever since my friends called me this one night, okay?«
»What are you talking about? When did your friends called? Jason talk to me!«, I beg him.
»It was that one night I told you I finally went out of the drug deals and all the other stuff. My gang asked me to come to that new club. At first I was like I'll not get in this again. But after they assured me there won't be any drugs and things like that I gave in. Since then I-«
»No, you didn't! Jason, you did not get into this once again«, I say shocked.
»I did!«, he screams,»I had to! I thought even if I'm in the gang I can keep up with you because everyone can but now it seems like they're just happier than us these days«
»You know what I'm too good for this. Okay? I'm too good for all this dumb things you do«, I yell,»I'm too good to you!«
»Okay, yes you are. I know«
»The whole time you took my love for granted but now I will take this to an end«, I scream.
I didn't notice till now that we're only millimeters away from each other. And then we kiss. With a strong force he embraces me and our kiss gets more passionate every second. It feels too good to let go. Suddenly I taste something salty in my mouth. Slowly I push him away seeing Jason cry.
»Hey, don't cry, baby«, I whisper grabbing his face with my hands.
»I'm so sorry, Y/N. I'm sorry for all your sleepless nights. I'm sorry you always had to worry about me and I'm so sorry for not being enough«, Jason says trying to hold back his tears.
He suffers and I don't even noticed. I was just busy with my own ass.
»I forgive you, babe just please don't cry. I know how hard it is for you I'm only-«
»No, Y/N it's okay. You should just know I love you and I'm so thankful I have you in my life«, he laughs a bit making me smile widely.
»I love you, too«, I reply embracing him in a big tight hug,»But please never leave me again.«
»I never did, princess«, Jason says and gives me a light kiss on the forehead.
