Crash (SC, #0.5; ARTL, #1)

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

Proud

After the all hands meeting ay dumiretso na kaagad ako sa unit upang matulog. I don't know why I get tired easily. Hindi mawala ang paghihikab 'ko. I know how fucked up my body clock pero tamang-tama naman ang aking mga tulog. Wala naman ga'nong ginagawa dahil puro preparation kami papuntang Timor Leste, Brunei, at Indonesia. Of course, we are all excited again for our travel. Farrell wants everything to be perfect as him, ha! Ilang meeting na rin kasi ang nagaganap para sa kagustuhan ng head boss! Ang laki rin kasi ng expectation ng mga bosses ng kompanya kay Farrell sa nangyaring trip namin sa Philippines. I am proud to know that they are all in love with my country. To be the only Filipino in the group, I can't stop bragging the beautiful wonders of the Philippines! Sana'y makaapekto sa bansa ang ginawa namin. It will be all known worldwide! I'd hope so! I really hope so.

With the success of the travel magazine, hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na malungkot. I have a constant chat with my family but it is not enough! Mommy would just look away when she was feeling her tears to fall. Walang chat na hindi siya umiiyak kapag kami nag-uusap. Si Daddy nama'y tila pinipigilan ang emosyon. They told me they miss me so much. Ganon din ako. I could feel my heart was clenching, missing their hugs. May araw ding nakakausap ko sina Ches at Joss, ngising-ngisi ako nang malaman na they are trying to have a baby na! After all! Nagtatalon at nagsasayaw sa harap ng screen nang ibunyag nila sa akin 'to! Though they are trying, but I am hoping na mabuntis na si Ches so I could be tita-ninang na! I will shower my niece or nephew almost everything! Hah! I will spoil him or her surely! I can't wait for that!

Harrison jumped on my lap when I sit on a sofa. I could still remember how I managed to get my boy here in Singapore. Mahigpit kasi ang pag-aalaga ng hayop dito. May mga dapat pang gawin, lalo na't mula pa siyang Pilipinas. But it's fine, he's here naman beside me! Hinagod-hagod ko ang kanyang ulo. Napakagat ako ng labi nang maisip si Harry. It's been 5 weeks and days since we've parted ways. I miss him so, so much even we set time to talk on weekdays. I don't want to disturb him because I know he's busy. UNI life, something like that. Lalo na't sa Europa pa siya nag-aaral. But I miss him, really, that I'd want to travel to London just to see him. Hindi ko maiwan ang trabaho! I can't leave just that...I wish I could...pero pwede naman siguro.

I breathed a sigh when I plot plans inside my head again. Umalis na sa lap ko si Harrison at pumunta sa kainan niya. I stared at our cat and think deeply again.

"I miss you..." I breathed, talking to no one. "Two days more." Pumikit ako ng mariin. I rested my head. Harrison meowed. Napangiti ako napailing. "I know, you miss my boyfriend, too," ani ko patungkol sa pusa.

Oh, gods.

My stomach twisted.

Hindi ko ininda at humiga na lamang sa sofa. Sabi ko na nga ba, hindi na maayos ang lasa ng burrito na binigay ni Michael sa akin e. But it is the most precious food in the world, I couldn't say no to that. I tasted sourly in my mouth. Ngunit patuloy pa rin ako paghiga. I need to sleep! I need to rest...even it is still early.

But stupid, stupid stomach! I almost stumbled making my way to the bathroom just to vomit! Damn it! Akala ko'y madadapa pa 'ko ngunit nakuha naman ang aking balanse. Halos sambahin ko ang bowl sa pagduduwal 'ko. Naubos ang laman ng aking tyan! But I don't have an appetite to eat! How could I live then? Hindi ko alam kung saan ko nakuha ang pagkahiluhin na 'to...I wish to lay down for the rest of my life.

Nagpalit ako ng damit na pantulog. Kaagad akong dumiretso sa kama but my phone rang. I received a text message from Diyanah.

Diyanah: