Crash (SC, #0.5; ARTL, #1)

Chapter 35

Epilogue na lang! Thank you for giving time to read and know their story! I am thankful because of you all! Salamat! God bless you!

Harry's POV

Chapter 35

Until Forever

I halted in the moment I saw who's lying on the ground. My vision darkens as my heart pounded inside my chest in a times, I don't remember it could beat like this frantically. I can't move easily.

It is Nathalie.

It is my Nathalie.

Blood scattered on the ground. Her slow gasp of air makes me breathe harder. I don't how I rush to her place and saw her...like this, barely moving, hardly breathing normally, and her limp body. As the rain falls hardly, I quickened my pace to hold her immediately. People scuttled in our place as the ambulance came. My bloodshot eyes almost startled those people in the ambulance. I shouted words to remind them, to be damn careful about her or tell me what is happening to her. I can't understand their words. Nakatitig lamang ako kay Nathalie na walang malay sa kinalalagyan. Even with that, I managed to call her family right away. I tried so hard to calm my system down for those minutes. Hawak-hawak ko lang sa byahe ang kamay ni Nathalie habang inaakikaso siya sa loob ng sasakyan.

"Sir, buntis po ba ang pasyente?"

Nanlamig ang buong katawan sa mga salitang iyon. I felt like a statue. I am blinking rapidly as I stared to Nathalie, her small body, to the blood loss. Hindi ko makuhang sumagot sa tanong niya hanggang sa makarating kaming hospital. I could feel my head pounding so loud as my lungs collapsing, sucking out oxygen. I almost wanted to bark orders to all those people, to the nurses, to the doctors to pay attention to Nathalie. Only to Nathalie.

Mabilis ang pangyayari hanggang sa ipasok siya ng Emergency Room. Even I wanted to be beside her, I am restricted to the place. I don't know if I can forgive myself right now. I rubbed my face forcefully and guilt ran into my system. I couldn't balance my body as loads keeps getting heavier on my shoulders. I wish I have stopped her from walking away from me. Sana'y pinigilan ko siya, hindi nagpadala sa aking nararamdaman. I wish I halted her from that moment even it is going to hurt my ego. With the times, she lied, I know how much it wounded me but I can't hate her. I couldn't. I wish I can, but my hatred can't outdo the over feelings I have for her. There are requests I aspire to be true, but it can't happen. She's with Kier. I can't take her away from him. Kahit ilang beses kong paalalahanin ang sarili ko. I can't destroy their relationship even it is complicated, I grew up with principle and honor. Mother would never approved of this crap. Just like father. Even my brother. So, am I.

Nathalie's family came around. My eyes found the exit. I can't look at Torres. These people loved their little girl. My heart clenched when I saw Mrs. Torres crying while clinging to his husband. Si Chesca nama'y humahagulgol na nakakapit kay Joshua Dominguez. Maybe Joss, whispering some soothing words to his girlfriend.

Napapikit ako ng mariin. A nurse approached and asked me if I wounded because of the blood stain on my shirt. I told her, I'm fine that I added, to watch Nathalie all the time. That I'm good and she's not. That I am normally breathing, that she's not. That my heart hurts so bad and so she is, too, I supposed.

I felt insignificant. Tila ang gaan at bigat ng aking nararamdaman habang naglalakad palabas ng ospital. My eyes wanted to see her one more time because I know when she'd wake up, and I damn hope so, she won't want to see this kind of cowardice, me. I felt a pang in my heart again.

Dear God, she'll be alright and the unborn child...

My phone buzzed. Nandilim ang paningin ko nang mabasa ang mensahe.