complicated ♡ k.ms

Chapter 36

Truc           

I tried studying but I would always end up stopping and looking outside my window which was in front of me. I was holding my pen tightly, trying to release all my anger. After I had cried my heart out, my emotions were replaced with anger. I was so frustrated with him. What does he want? Why is he always annoying me? Who is he to make me feel like this?

I tried to calm myself down by going to the kitchen to get a bottle of water. Maybe this will make me feel better. I suddenly hear the front door open and I assume it's my parents but I'm wrong. In front of me, Hoseok and Lynh stood in front of the counter, looking at me whilst holding hands. I looked at the two and grabbed my water and was about to leave the kitchen.

"Truc," I suddenly hear Lynh call out for me and I turn around to look at her. She runs over to me and hugs me. I get slightly shocked and drop my bottle. Hoseok awkwardly stands there and moves out the kitchen and mouths 'I'll give you two some space.' I wrap my arms around my sister and we stand there for a few minutes.

"I'm sorry for leaving so suddenly. I just needed some time," she says and I start to pull away from her.

"You remember when I said you could always tell anything and when you said you would be here for me. I want you to promise that we'll keep each other's back even at our worsts. I was so worried yesterday. I didn't know where you were and I felt like I wasn't being a good enough sister for you. I thought I was going to let you down," I say.

"Never think that again, okay? You are everything I need. I promise to have your back all the time if you have mine," she says and we both laugh and hug again.

"Your boyfriend is in the living room. We've left him for a while," I say and we both got off to the living with our arms linked.

"You solved everything?" Hoseok says and Lynh laughs and nods.

"I don't have much food here except for a few packets of honey buddha chips. We could snack off of that for now and go groceries shopping tomorrow," Lynh says.

"Sounds good to me," I say and go off to the kitchen to get food. 

We began eating and talking about random and I felt like everything was finally going back to normal. Everything was calm and I felt like all the drama going on was finally settling down. I couldn't take any more of it and now I could finally relax before hell comes back. Before I knew, Hoseok had looked at the time and thought it was time for him to leave.

"Bye, go home safely," Lynh says as Hoseok gives her a peck on the lips.

"I'll text you later," he says and turns his head and points to his cheek, telling Lynh to give him a quick peck there. Lynh laughs and is about to give him a peck but he turns his head and gives her another peck on the lips. Lynh laughs and pushes him out the house.

I pretend to gag as I look at her flustered face.

"That was disgusting," I say with a disgusted face.

"You will understand when you're older," she says as she walks into the kitchen.

"Truc, can you quickly check the letter box. I was supposed to get a letter for the bills for the shop but they said they would send it to the house," she yells from the kitchen. I sigh and walk out into the cold winter breeze and open up the letter box and grab the letters. 2 letters for my parents and one for Lynh. Is this the letter she was talking about?

I hear some voices outside the house and look over the fence to see Xiumin and Hoseok talking. What's Xiumin doing here? Why isn't he home yet? Probably hanging out with Mary like Baekhyun said. I want to walk back in but I stay and eavesdrop on their conversations. I know it's rude but I wanted to know why they were talking.

"Are you dating Lynh?" Xiumin says and Hoseok looks a bit shocked at his question. Why the hell would he ask that question?

"Why does it matter if I'm dating Lynh? It doesn't affect anything going on between you and Truc," Hoseok says.

"Actually it kind of does," Xiumin says and I get a bit taken back from his stern tone. What does he mean though? I don't get it.

"Go on. We have all night to talk about this," Hoseok says whilst crossing his arms.

"Well uhm you see," Xiumin starts off nervously and scratches the back of his neck which is a habit of his when he's nervous or afraid. He's definitely nervous. "I was jealous."

Jealous? Jealous of what?

Hoseok lifts his eyebrow and nods his head for Xiumin to go on.

"Truc ditched me to go with you on your first day so I went somewhere and I met Mary. I didn't know she knew me but she helped me with my work. She confessed to me later on and I didn't know what to say. Then I saw you with Lynh a few times and I kept thinking she was Truc. I got mad and jealous and went out with Mary. I thought if I dated her long enough, I would be able to get over her but I guess that didn't work," he says and stops. There's a bit of silence and awkward tension between the two.

I think about the last sentence over and over again in my head. I thought if I dated her long enough, I would be able to get over her but I guess that didn't work. Get over me? I can't jump to conclusions but I can't help it. Those few words made me feel a bit of hope but then I thought about Mary. Was Xiumin using her the whole time then?

"So you used Mary to get over Truc?" Hoseok says and Xiumin looked down and slightly nodded. Ashamed of himself. He should be. How can he play with someone's feelings?

"So tell me, do you have feelings for Truc?" Hoseok says and I look up and look at Xiumin's face, waiting for his reaction. He looks a bit taken back and is again nervous.

"No I don't like her," he says and I could feel my heart sinking. I wanted to turn around and go back into the house but the next three words make my eyes widen.

"I love her."